如果...

如果有一天，我们真的不讲话了。我不知道，我会如何。
会害怕。会着急。会惆怅。会胡思乱想。
就是不知道会做什么。
打电话问个清楚吧。拨打您的号码，已足够让我全身颤抖。


如果有一天，让你真的遇见您的另一半。
我也不知道自己的感受会是如何。
就算明明知道，他会对你很好，我还是会心酸，心痛。
我会虔诚地祝福你。但我不会高兴。


如果有一天，我真的不喜欢你了。
如果你也一样喜欢我，那我会恨死我自己，
即然伤了一个喜欢我的人。
不管什么原因都好，都不能够原谅。


如果有一天，我真的知道自己无法和你在一起。
我会明白理由和原因，未必接受。
但请你给我一个机会，
来说一句“我爱你” 然后才让你离开。


如果有一天，那上天真的让我许一个愿。
我会告诉他，
你不要再让我在情路上跌跌撞撞了啊！
我就要她，那粒矮冬瓜。
就算看起来不扥对，我还是要她。


如果我没有在当天你离去后追着你拿您的天话号码。或许今天的我，不会在此胡思乱想，乱乱写东西。就可能是你忙，不回复我，还是会有那惆怅，紧张的感觉。

如果，现在的我，有个愿许。我就要上天把握化成一封信息。就这样，把我自己送到您的手机去...

Principles

Defined as a law or rule that has to be followed, and under no matter what circumstances shall it be negated nor neglected.

Science has it's own principles.

So does life.

A person with principle can never go bad in life. That again if we assume the principles in his or her mind are the good ones.

Love also has it's own principles. And of course, it has one of the vast array of them.

Normally, as we are all mortals, we usually uphold the normal sayings or principles or cliche sayings when it comes to love principles.


1. Love has no right and wrong

I myself have been trying to take this saying or principle into a test. And there are times where I swiched sides along the way. But in the end, up till this very day, I still believed that love has it's right and wrong. It will always end when one or both individuals have comitted something wrong that cannot be forgiven, or maybe it was out of something so small that the other person could not even forget... Whoever breaks the tie in a relationship, is ALWAYS wrong. Nuff said.


2. Fate
Sounds so like some romance love story. I for one never believe in fate. Our paths are not fated to be what they are. Rather it is up to us to shape our own destiny. But maybe people nowadays just watch too much love drama... "I'm sorry, we're not just meant t o be together." Hello? This is a real life scenario, not some lovey dovey story. Besides, chances are he or she will never get back to you after you've said that. It's definitely one of the lamest and most unsophisticated reason of all...

Okay I don't know why I blurted out so much crap that I never intend to write, but I guess it was some way to finally get to make me say what I want to say.

My principles of my own LOVE life (which haven't occured yet)


1. Like ->Love = Loyalty

Of course. At first you start having a crush on someone. Then you like him or her. Then probably you get deeply and madly in love. But then again, feelings do somehow weakened and gets diluted as time goes by. This is where loyalty comes in. Our fathers and mothers have done miraculous efforts to maintain their relationship (well mine does!) compareed to nowadays where it is much easier to keep in touch with each other but then relationships seem so much more fragile.

For me, if I really like a girl, then there is no point considering other girls. No plan B nor plan C. Just plan A. Even though at times, plan A may be deemed to fail. But I'd still hang on to plan A. No backing off and letting go. No. My heart and head just doesn't allow that.


2. NO 3rd party

One of the principles that seldom adhered by others. Most people don't care about it. They come, they like, they conquered and they snatch. And a lot of relationships end because of 3rd party involvement with one of the individuals who are already in a relationship. Plus relationships nowadays are so weak and fragile, it's almost like no big deal someone breaks up and gets on with another person. Well no not for me.

I will never gatecrash someone's relationship. Even if it's gonna hurt.

But then again, gatecrashing a relationship is not a sin. It's just a choice to be a better man rather than some animal who are merely following their feelings and lust, should I say?

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I myself have had crushes on girls who were in a relationship. And I felt proud that I chose not to gatecrash.

And to that special girl who has been running around my head since the first day we've met, you can count on me. I'll be willing to give up my final year at my University aka the sea, where there are a thousand of girls aka fishes swimming around waiting to be caught.

Because I choose you... :)
Because YOU ARE MY PLAN A!

Well let's just see how I can cope with it for one year... ;)


Readers, wish me luck and strength!!!

그리워해요 공주님...

我想当一封信息

人都已经二十二岁了。但谁说二十二岁就不能够发白日梦？内心的我，还是一个小孩，还是喜欢想东想西。

记得小时候，有想过要当飞机啊，电脑啊，机器人啊等等。那当然现在不会幼稚到这种地步。但还是有时候，一个人想啊想，发一些小孩子的梦。

现在的我，有想当一封信息的感觉。

好希望能够把自己，发送到妳那儿去。

也不知道你收到我这封信息，会怎样...

就算你会当场把我删除掉，甚至把我忘掉，我也不介意。我还是想当一封信息。

虽然一封信息的限制不像一封手写的信，要写多少就写多少。但也不用尽。

因为我想对你说的，只是四个字....



*唉写得好没feel。爱睡了。Feel 不在了... >.< 写到很随便...

New

As much as I would like to hide and deny, which in fact I can't, the new semester is finally commencing. There goes one hell of a 4 month break... 4 month break of nothing, emptiness, yet PAINLESS AND PROBLEM-NESS. Never had I experienced the true meaning of Bruno Mars' The Lazy Song up till my break.

Yeah new semester. New challenges. Bla bla bla. New problems. Ah quit the bad and undesirable "News"...

New reformatted lappie

Yeah ANGRY BIRDS!

Yeah I HAVE JUST became a Windows 7 user... All these time I was the so loyal Windows XP user. Notice that I have tons of games on my desktop. Yes I'm a gaming dude. No games I just can't study... =D

And notice that I am using Chrome and Firefox all together. WHY? Because I don't know what's up with Chrome and Firefox. Chrome crashes when I load too much browsers, and Firefox just can't load my Grooveshark player. Sucky. Chrome is to load and stream my Grooveshark player while I do my online thingy using Firefox... My old Firefox on XP never did complained of over work... Noob Chrome... -.-

So it can all sums up that not all that is new is good.

That's why I'm gonna welcome the new semester with the same old me...

Well perhaps with a slight change. After all, who can stay the same after 10 months away from notes and lectures huh?

Anyway, as much I would like to hate the new semester, I'd still say, nay I shout it out loud!

WELCOME NEW SEMESTER! I CAN'T WAIT FOR MISS HOLIDAYS TO FIND ME AGAIN!

Stop and Start

I stopped doing a lot of things...

I stopped reading like a nerd which I used to... Which in some ways is bad because I sense my English plummeting into the abyss...

I stopped playing games for long hours. I grew bored of games...

I stopped writing poems... Owh man... That was like one of my talents... No reason or commitment to write one...

I stopped blogging frequently. Used to be a chatter and always blogging. Don't know where the enthusiasm has gone...

I stopped having perfect spellings. Never did ever relied on the wriggly red lines to correct my spellings. Not any more...

I stopped doing daily routine of push ups and sit ups. Lazy and just recovered from a fever. I'll get that back when semester starts...

I stopped playing football for quite some time. Never did have the mood or timing where everyone is free.

I stopped self learning Korean online. I keep on thinking that I will eventually learned it when I take Korean classes when semester starts. Now that it clashes with my core courses chances are I might have to drop it. Let's hope they changed the class time...

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I started listening to Korean songs. And yeah, I don't move like Jagger :) (I shuffling once a while though, not everyday XP)

I started to realize that my mind is still not sure on what I would be. Well I have things planned out, but chances are large they may change. Unless... ;)

I started to realize, that feelings can fade and disappear. But it can also get stronger...

I started to realize, that you may be far away from me by distance, but never far from me in my head. You were always there, right there and never left, since the day we met.

I started to realize, everything I started to do, it DOES has a connection to you...

I started to realize, that you might not be the one girl in my life. But that doesn't give me the right to stop believing it wouldn't happen!

Girl, girl, girl~!!!

It's not easy talking to a girl. Opps. THAT girl to be precise. What THAT girl? THAT girl that makes your "thump thump" beat so fast when you see her. THAT girl that you can't get your mind off.

Yeah THAT girl.

I don't know about you guys, but for me, it's hard talking to THAT girl (of my heart. You go find yours XD ). It's not like talking to other girls. I tend to be more lax and more of a joker when I talk or interact with normal female friends. Maybe there are times where I may over-do or "mis-speak" something, it usually does not leave any heavy damage. It even doesn't matter if I get too lame or lol-ed too much.

But for THAT girl... Owh.. No way. Clicking on her name on MSN already makes my heart skip. Typing a "hi" or "hey" makes thing trickier. I mean my brain just hang or gets stuck when I see her log in... ARGH!

It's so pathetic that sometimes I need to think of something to say before we chat... Think as in think during I day dream or when I have nothing to do...

Yeah I'm so freaked out that I'm so so scared of being lame when I say something wrong... T.T

Another thing is impressing her. Sometimes when I find something exciting, unusual, most of the time I'll share it with her... The sad thing is or what upsets me is when she says she seen it before or when she doesn't find it interesting... That makes me... Emo? (*nods head).

No its just not the current girl or my ex (heck I don't even have an ex). It's just my brain... Ugh... When she appears, I just...


Yeah... Precisely...

I just....

T.T

Thought of The Day

As uncertain as the future may be, then as much as scary is what I am feeling. I don't know how or will I be driving a car or not, live in a house or not, get life partner to start a family with, or maybe live to a ripe old age.

But there is one saying or rule of thumb of being happy is, forget yesterday's misery, fret not future's uncertainty; live everyday happily. So to continue being sane and normal, no point for me to live in my past's shadow, nor be terrified of my future.

But then again, there must be a dream or something we must be looking for or aiming at the current situation, that we might somehow get or achieve in the future, or when the time is right.

If I were to choose something in future that would make me to look forward to,

I'd choose you...

The reason to look forward to, the future...