Pandora Box

I store feelings inside boxes. Most of the time negative one's. Feelings that can wreck moods and turn tides.

That is why I call them Pandora boxes. Once open, it will consume me. Maybe turning me into a person that even I'm not familiar...

But most of the time though, these boxes get buried and forgotten along time. Which is good because life can be much happier without having to be calculative and bearing grudge.

Sometimes though, I pull out and open boxes that can't be forgotten. Boxes that are filled with feelings and memories of someone I care. Love. Miss.

One of these boxes, is grandpa. One month has passed since the day he drew his last breath. This past month had me with mixed feelings. From a hardcore atheist, I began to start believing in Heaven and Hell. Cause I want to believe that he has gone to somewhere nice.

There are nights where I have nightmares of loved ones leaving me, only to have me waking up from what was a terrible nightmare.

It has also got me thinking. I don't mind being single at the moment. But what about in a few years time? I used to be alright with being single for life. But the personality of mine would make me crazy. I want to have children. I want to have grandchildren. I want to have my family beside me when I draw my last breath...

Grandpa's departure changed me. It changed the perspective of life. As what my dad said, he was a simple man, but he was sent off in style.

What is life, when you don't have a family, someone you love, to share with?


p.s. and to you-know-who-you-are, you are also one of my Pandora Boxes. We may not chat often. But that doesn't mean that I don't care about you anymore..

Masochistic

I think by now I can conclude that I am indeed one.

Not harming myself by blade or self inflicting damage. But through sport.

I run like mad. I've been running very very regularly. I run more rounds than I've set myself in my resolution. I've been doing crunches rounds like crazy. I do push ups daily too.

Yesterday was my first visit to the gym in like for ages. I got to really torture myself with all the equipments over there.

Yes I feel the aches today. But it wasn't that painful as I have been doing my workouts at home. But you can't deny going to the gym let's you work out parts of your body that seems impossible to work out at home.

It has been 1 and a half month since England, since the start of my grueling workout. I seem to be coping quite well with the daily pain, which the intensity has diminished over the month.

I guess it is time to push in the gears for a tougher regime. Complacency will never get me to my ultimate resolution this year.

I know I have a strict rule of not taking any form of protein powder supplement.

But I may just wanna try to hack my way towards my goal...

 

Well that's the extreme nightmare that awaits me in the month of May 2014... 

Post CNY

Historically Chinese New Year ain't really over until the 15th day. But then in reality, I think CNY was practically over for me since the 4th day when I started working.

The word New Year triggers flashback and self assessment - where was I and where am I, what I did and what will I do. Put simply, a reflection on past mistakes and achievements and to draft out the great to-be-achievements.

It's already approaching the mid of February - that means 11% of 2014 is already history.

11%. Not a lot some might say. Well that's perspective. For some people like me, I'd say that time really flies! I've failed some short term goals, enforcing on some of them, to hopefully make the ultimate goal something achievable by the end of this year.

I start of my year with some relatively simple goals. I enforced some pretty decent daily workouts, which I think not only drives me to work out and read, but also to instill some basic discipline. Noted that I gave myself some days off during sometimes like CNY, but that urge to continue the habits has always been there.

I have already drafted my 2014 resolutions. I took quite a couple of days to refurnished it. But that doesn't mean it stays the same throughout all the years. Time to add in a few more goals, refurnished the dates and add in a few more small goals.

Time to kick start the gears for the big dreams of mine, for 2014.

Pursiut of Happiness

These days I've been thinking. Thinking of how my limited choices would have limited me.

Yes up till now I still don't have any preference in going back to the food industry. I dread working in a factory.

Maybe just because of a one time exposure, which hence gave me a phobia to stay away from food processing plants, is not really fair nor doing justice. Maybe after getting exposed to a few food factories will change my views and feelings for them?

All this while I thought I forsook food technology because of the low pay. But when I look back on my life, money never really did played a significant part of my happiness. I can live without good food, nor do I visit clubs and bars for booze and beer. I have lived my university days with just bread and Milo, biscuits, without a single grain of rice.

I admit I dread facing the working world. I dread to not be able to do what I like, what I want. People only work to survive (well most people). Out of the millions of people out there working, we all know that only a few find their ideal job.

I dread more having to face one of my nightmares, is to enroll in a job, in a field that I have almost given up on, where I study because I needed to.

But what dreads me most is being pressured to get a job. To be honest, the days I'm living in now are as bad as the days I dread about my FYP.

The Island

I've spent my uni days pondering and relishing about getting off the island as soon as possible.

And now that I'm finally off the island, I actually wanna go back.

It's just like the castaways in the drama Lost. They've spent most of their time trying to get off the island, until at some point at the series, when they show future cuts of some casts finally getting off the island, you see people like Jack trying to get back to the island.

Irony? Yes.

And yes, there is a part of me that wants to get back to the island.

Can You Hear Me?

Sometimes, I just feel so lost. Sometimes I feel stress, anxiety on how to start writing the new chapter of my life.

Its like having to write a new story, where all this while I have been used to continue writing pieces of my life as it goes on.

I have just reached a point where, I fear of not knowing how to start a new chapter.

Well of course the main idea is there. But what to write?

It is mentally torturing when your friends have all started writing, while you are still left scratching your head in the exam hall, while time is ticking away...

It is disheartening to have submitted your resumes and not get notified as time goes by. You begin to doubt your own abilities. You start to feel lousy...

I am, lousy....  Can you hear me?

Graduating

To me, it's no big deal. However, it's quite a big event. Because most of us get to do it only once in a lifetime. It signifies the end of the occupation as a student. It is a symbol that we have completed our higher institutional studies.

As I said so on my facebook, all the years spent on being a student, studying here and there for almost 20 years, and getting to be on the stage for less than one minute of fame... It feels so surreal. Feels so unrealistic. All these years I've never thought I would one day stop going to school or class. It just dawn to me that I am a student no more. It's a hard and cold truth to accept after getting used to attending class, reading notes, burning midnight oil for exams. It's a self inflicting stress and anxiety that I think would be a memory, wrapped up in  a parcel and left only to reminiscent.

Deep down there is a part of me that still have the desire to go on. To stay young forever. To be able to continue attending classes and lectures. Final semester of my final year was somehow my favourite semester. It was the only sem where I could take extra subjects, subjects which I really love. I miss attending Korean classes, guitar classes and English speaking classes. And I scored well too in the exams :)

To be not able to take and complete my level 3 Korean, is like having an incomplete Uni life. Haha. Sounds funny, but yeah. Maybe if I've completed level 3, graduating would feel more, real?

Funny how 4 years just slipped by in a blink of an eye. 4 years is almost as long as the 5 years one spent in secondary school. But in terms of fondness, I think leaving USM kinda makes me more sad or emotional compared to leaving secondary school.

Seriously, is there something in USM that is making me miss USM, or it's just me being a nostalgic fag? Argh I don't know... :/

*ps. Congratulations to myself for being a USM graduate. It's an achievement. It's not what everyone has a chance of emulating. However, it is not my greatest achievement. It is just a small hill that I've just successfully conquered.

Shinji Kagawa's GIRLFRIEND??

I just knew this like few days ago. Kinda shocked me though. Cause I never did quite go to the extend of knowing a footballer's personal life. It is the performance on pitch that counts.


Now Kagawa's girlfriend, is an ADULT VIDEO actress in Japan. Well in other words, and a harsher word to use, would be a porn actress. Maybe it's considered okay in Japan. But for me, I find it quite hard to accept.

What more she's not only some porn star. She is THE porn star. Like one of the most hottest porn star in Japan. She is Ameri Ichinose.

Now I don't deny that she's pretty. Hot maybe also. And yes she's sexy. And yes again, most guys would not close their eyes if this girl would to strip in front of you (come on don't act gentleman!).

But as a girlfriend? I don't know about you guys. Maybe I can't say no if a chick like that come banging on my door. But as a girlfriend it's a definitely NO for me. It's like having a girlfriend who smokes and use vulgarities ( traits that I simply set as basic requirements of choosing a girlfriend).

Not that I look down on those who are in the porn industry. At least it's not earning a living the wrong way like stealing or robbing.

Being in the AV industry is more towards making love on air rather than being an actress in a movie with nudity. At least a movie has a freaking story line, with sex not really the main theme or focus of the movie. 

Maybe from my point of view, women should be treated with more respect and care. And as a woman, it's not really proper to show your personal side to everyone.

Then again, I don't mind free show. Bottom line, I think someone like Shinji Kagawa deserves someone with a better social stature.

*ps I still can't accept it. No. Jeez this is killing me. Wonder what Terry and Balotelli have up their sleeves?

*PS There are reports that this rumours are FAKE. Well Thank God I say! :D

Life is a War

"Life is like a box of chocolates."

Well  screw you Forest! Not that I hate you, but for different people and seen through different perspectives, life is not always a box of chocolates.

Life is a war zone. Your graduation from your alma mater is no less than graduating from a military academy. You get your first job aka become enlisted in the army. You start from the lowest rank in the company. You are cannon fodder.

You spend your whole life, battling cannons and bombs. Only different thing about working is, you don't die literally, or end up without your limbs if you've stepped on a landmine. Sometimes you get screwed by your captain. Your captain gets screwed by his major, and then the General screws everyone under his control.

We spend all our life, working up the military hierarchy if the modern working world. We ourselves dream to someday become a major, admiral or whatsoever. It seems like this is life's only way of progress.

What if, life is not a war? What if, there's no need to get enlisted into society's modern warfare?

Maybe life is a war. War starts with one person or incident, and gets carried out by the entire nation. Your neighbour buys a new car. You work your ass off to buy a bigger one to show him you're better.

There's no escape. You either join the ranks and work your ass up the ranks, or you become an emo farmer watching the tanks steamrolling across your crop fields when war breaks loose.

Me? I don't wanna be any of them, if I could have it my way. If life is a war, you make the most of it. You become, THE ARMS DEALER...

*ps I love Forest Gump!! 

That's Life

As far as I know, I am so willing to let go of what I've learned. Bye bye food tech. It was the University life that matters. Not the degree.

I don't want to spend my life, or even an ounce of it, reviewing SOPs, managing workers in a factory, or doing hourly check in a production line, or plotting and constructing a HACCP.

...

Just like giving me a lousy CGPA during my matriculation, life has once again pit me into a situation, where it torments me mentally and spiritually.

There is still a chance that I may end up in the food production industry. Maybe I will like it. But it was never a choice I wanted to make should is really happen.

I really hate to say this, but since year 2 in my degree life, I'd already made up my mind that I would avoid this field once I graduate. Doesn't matter that if I'm smart enough or have the abilities to succeed in this field or not. Bottom line is, I don't like it, and nor will I feel happy if my future working life were to be something similar to my intern life.

No harm to my ex intern company. It's just the life of a food technologist that bothers me. What ever I do, I make sure my happiness and health is the utmost priority. So forget about getting my arse into a production line at midnight. My biological clock and health is more than money.

Ah if happiness would made me live and feel up an empty stomach. If only money wasn't everything.

From the way I see things now, most probably I'll end up doing something I don't like...

Well that's the sad case of life.

Deishi Basara

Watched the Dark Knight Rises couple days ago. Not as mind blowing as I'd expected it to be. But still awesome.

Rather than do another movie review, I'd like to give my 2 cents worth of thoughts regarding a particular scene in the movie.



*play this before you continue reading :p


The scene that evoked me the most was the scene, where Bruce Wayne tried to climbed out of the prison pit. Knowing that Bane was about to bring utter destruction to Gotham, Bruce picked himself up from a broken state (literally and figuratively), trained hard before trying to scale up the walls of the prison.

He attempted scaling the walls a number of times. He failed and failed. Until at last, he decided to climb without a safety rope that would meant death- should he fail to successfully jump and caught hold one of the edges.

Coming back on the current society, specifically my society, I see no difference between us, between me and Bruce Wayne trying to jump with a rope. Sometimes all it needs, is a dose of fear, so that you'll know that important step you take is actually a step of life and death.

We all have been taught and brought up, thinking that to succeed in life, only academic supremacy will help us achieve that. The truth is, it's not. It is the safest mean to success, but it doesn't guarantee success. Figuratively, it means tying yourself with a rope when you're about to jump that vital step, to reach for ultimate glory. You won't die should you fail, but you would never be that legend who took that leap of faith and got out of there.

That is why, we have so many people fighting for the same job. So many high scorers in government exams. But no hero. Only a handful of respected sportsman. No winning bet on an Olympic gold medalist winner. No GUARANTEE that there will be another one of a kind shuttler to take up Lee Chong Wei's mantle to continue stamping our mark as badminton elites. The crisis that our national badminton squad faces will follow the footsteps of our national football team's footsteps- to utter disappointment (but on the other side, they are improving. Just that they are just a pale comparison to the Super Mokh era.)

We are taught to study, study and study our whole lives. We've seen the flame of our dreams as sportsmen, artistes, entertainers all doused with the so called logic and advices by our parents, teachers and society. That is why there would never be a Malaysian footballer playing in major football leagues in the Europe. Nor will there be any Malaysians that would stamp their mark in Hollywood or with God's miracle, get nominated for an Oscar or Grammy.

We are all prisoners, jumping and trying to get out of that fictional prison of ours. Those who succeeded are those who climbed without ropes. It takes great courage to be different to others. Unfortunately in my society, while scaling up a prison pit with no ropes, there is no one to chant "Deishi Basara!".

No one.

Bro-hood

One of the finest friendships one could have. It is certainly an honor to be treated as someone's brother without having blood ties. It's the things we've gone through together, binds us, and somehow unconsciously, we came to trust each other 100% without a single doubt. Guys, if there is a guy friend like that that makes you feels that way, congratulations, you treat him as a bro. :)

Come to think about it, I kinda have a lot of bros. Maybe I have dis-positioned trust, where I tend to trust people more easily. I have tons of them at Taiping; most of them former classmates. The chemistry, how we talk, how we clicked together, is un-describable with words. Well now that we are all scattered apart; some overseas, some in different parts of Malaysia, but the thing is, we'd always stay silly and dorky, even 10 years later after we last knew each other (some I have knew them for almost 20 years!)

Days with bros can never be lousy or boring. Cause when bros are together, we'd make even the boring situations lively. Maybe that's one of the facts bros seldom go on vacation trips but hang out ALOT!

After finishing my final paper, I'd still have a presentation 4 days after. On normal circumstances I wouldn't have planned to come back. But since I have one bro who's going back to work in the US, which I will not be seeing for a long time, I jetted back home :)

Once in a while I come up with magnificent quotes. And when one of my friends asked me why would I come back home just for like 2 days, I lifted my left hand to almost the level of my eye, and said :"friendship"
Then I lowered my right hand, to a level just above my crotch, and said:"viva presentation".

It's not like I don't give a damn to the presentation. But in my life, one of the sources of happiness is having the friends I have now, not achieving a bloody good presentation and an effing good result...

Bro hood for life. All the best kiddo :3

When Impossible Is Just A State Of Mind

2nd paper down-ed. Logged into facebook and found that there is a possibility that my VIVA presentation (final year project presentation) could be brought forward to 27th June, literally next week.Well of course it kind of make things spicier and more nerve wrecking.

Maybe there are those among us who bemoans the sudden death timing. I don't blame them. 28th is the date of our final paper of our degree life. A 4 unit paper. You could say life or death paper. Only thing good about it is it's a MCQ paper.

Well of course if I'm one of the lucky one's who face sudden death, what can I do other than add in more effort for my presentation and last paper? Should I fret or swear the unfairness of so called "natural selection"? Should I ask for postpone?

Life in campus was never meant to be easy. Comparatively, I'd say my course is not the most extreme when it comes to work load. There are people with courses which requires them to sacrifice their sleep to complete their project (architecture)t, where in the end the schedule was so hectic that 25% of their course are meant to repeat because of not completing mandatory project datelines.

By putting what other people have given to their course, I dare say what I or food tech students put in for our degree, is so little compared to them. We need not have exhibitions, nor complicated computer work.

Having a VIVA presentation may just be one of the highlights and climax of the current semester. Rather than think it as an obstacle or problem, I'd rather think it as a chance to see how far I can push myself should I am one of the lucky one's who face sudden death. It is not impossible to do well in the presentation and also do well in the final paper.

The moment you see what I see (if you have) and understand what I write here, Impossible is just a state of the mind, where you think you aren't able to do something you haven't put in enough effort.

Nasi Lemak

It all started out as taking a heavy but cheap breakfast so that I could skip lunch or have a light lunch, cause it's always better to have a full breakfast. But days passed, I've finally came to realize I am kind of addicted to Nasi Lemak. No not the one that is wrapped up in banana leaves, but those where you are able to freely choose your side dishes and they served it to you PIPING HOT~!

Yes one of the most simplest dishes of all. yet also considered as the national dish. Steamed coconut rice- Coconut CAN be omitted but NEVER leave out the ginger slices and pandan leaves, eggs- I prefer hard-boiled than fried one's (healthier and tastes nicer when you have it with sambal), cucumbers- fresh and thinly sliced, still retaining the cold temperature as if just taken out from the fridge (too bad the only greenery of nasi lemak), chicken- this side dish is sometimes flexible, as it can be substituted with others such as fish, beef, squid or so on. Never the less, this side dish is considered the main dish of all the side dishes, so it must tastes the best, if possible unique. Since a lot of Malay vendors and some Chinese vendors are selling nasi lemak, this is the dish that should be special to have a daily hoard of customers. Anchovies and groundnuts- Deep fried perfectly, but if possible, a bit on the burnt side, to give an extra crisp and flavor to them. However not coated with oil, and should not be stale. Last but not least, the sambal- also preferably unique, but the cliche type (grounded chillies cooked with onions or curry gravy) is enough to complement with the whole dish.  Those are my criteria of what a good nasi lemak should be.

Ever wondered why nasi lemak is usually eaten as breakfast but seldom for lunch, dinner? Well at least in my hostel cafe usually and mostly nasi lemak is only served in the morning. Probably it's a trend or habit to eat nasi lemak as breakfast. But to me eating nasi lemak as breakfast takes on new meanings and reasons.

Generally I'm a food lover- I eat mostly everything. So being biased when it comes to food is totally nothing related to my tastes. Plus I am a self-admit food critique, where I believe my tastes when it comes to seasoning and tastes intensity will work out just fine, in fact perfectly as possible. There are really quite a variety of ways to kick start a day with a hearty breakfast, given that Malaysia is blessed with so many races, each of them having their specialty cuisine. Nasi lemak, wan tan mee, Hokkien mee, Roti Canai, Dim Sum are all just the few names one can think of when it comes to choosing one as breakfast.

The different thing or what's special about nasi lemak compared to others is, it is comparatively a simple dish. It does not require much preparation time compared to others- it is usually prepared beforehand and just requires choosing the side dishes you want and voila~ start eating. Noodles need to be cooked, roti canai dough needs to be flipped and fried once the order is taken, not nasi lemak.

Plus of all the dishes, I dare say nasi lemak is the most colorful of them all. White rice, flaming red sambal, brown fried anchovies, yellow egg yolk, green cucumbers. Just by the appearance itself nasi lemak triumphs over other dishes. I don't know about others but having to have something so colorful as breakfast really lightens up a sleep face's mood like mine~!

Nasi lemak is also special in terms of tastes. It is the individuality of the saltiness of fried anchovies, the bland yet springy hard-boiled egg, the crunchy and fresh cucumbers, fragrant piping hot rice, spicy and enticing sambal all mixed together, that gives it such a special flavor and taste, that makes you shove in a second mouthful of it even you haven't even finish chewing and swallowing the first mouthful. Indeed it is not a fusion or blend of different tastes to make a different flavor - it is the individual side dishes that one can still taste and differentiate, yet they can work together so well in harmony which gives an orgasm to your taste buds.

As much as I like it so much, I don't take it everyday though. But sometimes once in a while, I don't mind taking nasi lemak twice or maybe thrice in a row for each day's breakfast, if the vendor sells superb nasi lemak. As a Chinese guy who can take very spicy food, the food that definitely I will miss most, or maybe crave once in a while like mad should I be overseas, will definitely be none other than - The Nasi Lemak.

*just had my nasi lemak breakfast. Sometimes I think that the spicy sambal itself is more effective than a coffee's caffeine to kick start one's day~ :P

Over plan and Over Scheme

Sometimes being too good a planner is no good. It makes me complacent.

I have a core paper this coming Tuesday. Basically it is the toughest paper of all the papers I'm taking this sem. Well usually and normally people always put in their hardest effort for the toughest paper. Me too. But not this paper.

Why?

Because I planned to much. I schemed too much. This core paper is worth 3 units. I'm taking 18 units this semester. Other than this core is a 6 unit Final Year Project, 1 unit of Guitar (Co-curricular), 2 units of Korean language class, 2 units of English speaking class and 4 units of Organizational Behavior (Minor).

I always do calculations before and set targets. Usually my targets get me well over 3.5, which is the dean's list. Not that I don't aim for 4.0, but I'm not the person who finds great joy being the best in academics while sacrificing my fun and leisure time. So 3.5 above is good enough for me, and usually I get it with just the right amount of hardwork, and planning XP

But this semester is far more different. Because of the weight the 6 unit Final Year Project carry, that subject itself is life and death. Doing well in my FYP means, how bad the other papers turn out to be are irrelevant. And touch wood if my FYP turns out to be crap, well not even all my papers put together can get me a dean's list.

Plus I have more confident in my other papers compared to this looming core paper. I will put in effort on other papers which I have more confident in, easier to study. Going through this current subject makes me bored and going in circles.

Plus I don't really quite care of what I get this semester. It's the bloody last semester. Time to enjoy and relax, rather than study the crap out of me... So here I am, 2nd blog entry of the day... Yawn. Boring :/

P R O M E T H E U S - Hypothesis to Questions

Finally a good movie to spur me back into reviews and thoughts. Movies nowadays are a bit too cliche and direct, so the usual reviews make no sense and sounds irrelevant, because I'm no pro. However each and everyone of us is entitled to our own points and views, so for a movie like Prometheus, it is what you think or what they make you think which is more important.

Prometheus is a movie, which you say is science fiction, maybe science (if it could be real!). Now to those who aren't familiar or knew NOTHING about the Greek myths, this movie is named Prometheus not because the ship's name is Prometheus (well partly you can say, but no one names a movie after a ship ;] ).

According to Greek myths, Prometheus is a titan (think Clash/Wrath of the Titans, but not that big bad guy). He is known as a champion of mankind, who was famously known for his theft of fire for the human use. Prometheus stole heavenly fire from Heaven and gave it to humans, enabling the progress of civilization (we didn't rub wood with stone till we made our own fire! And cooking food with fire is a symbol or proof of civilization XD).

Well that is roughly what the myths say about him. In Western classical tradition, Prometheus is a symbol of human striving, particularly for SCIENTIFIC KNOWLEDGE, and the risk of overreaching or unintended consequences (quoted from Wikipedia). This guy, basically wanted to give equal footing for humans with Gods!

Now going back to the movie (SPOILER ALERT: DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCH). Elizabeth Shaw and Charlie Holloway discovered similarities of star map in different civilizations, hence decided to prove that humans are not created by God, claimed by the religion, rather we could be a race faction of present aliens in other world - which they called "Engineers". This claim has been rubber stamped right at the start of the movie, where we see a humanoid alien drinking some gooey black liquid, disintegrating, leading to change of DNA, mutation, and in the end, new life forms-cells are formed and mitosis occurs.

The act, of traveling to the location designated by the star map, to prove that God never created humans, to put equal footing that it was actually man that created man, is an act of "Prometheusim". Hence, finally we now justify, why the movie is called Prometheus, where it isn't about Greek myths, nor has this guy appeared in the whole movie.

*I am an Atheist myself, so this theory or believe rather suits well with me XP.

Now questions and answers, based on my self interpretations:

1. Why did the Engineers created us and then wanted to destroy us?

Good question. In fact the one's everyone has in their minds. Even got me thinking straight away after I finished the movie. There are of course a lot of answers, since this is a very open-ended question. One of the perspectives is: Remember the beginning scene where we saw that Engineer drinking the black liquid? At that time the setting was on Earth. He sees a spaceship leaving, disrobe, drank the liquid, went into seizures, disintegrates, falls down the waterfall, his DNA destroying-but not entirely, and then live cells forming and multiplying. Theory one could be that he was indeed chosen to create us. Other theories might be a bit absurd, because they did came back and helped us in different civilizations, judging that different civilizations showed the same star map. So they couldn't be evil. So that leaves us to the next question.


2. Why would they want to destroy us?

This is an even harder question. Basically this is the question that fuels speculation of a 2nd movie. Even till the end of the first movie, even Elizabeth herself is clueless. So what is the reason, is up to your own imagination. As rich as possible. Maybe something happened back in their home planet, which could mean purging us to take over our planet. Maybe it is fun to create something just because you can, and destroying them too (what Charlie said to David). You can give a thousand reasons,  but until a possible 2nd movie comes out, everything is possible.

  
3. Why are there so many different type of aliens? Why some mutate and some don't?

Remember there were 2 scientists that got lost. One got killed by a snake like (or cobra like) alien. One got contaminated by the black liquid. Think back. When Elizabeth, David and Charlie entered the chamber with the BIG engineer head statue, after lifting their foot from the ground, there is a scene where earthworms are seen wriggling in the soil. And then black liquid starts to ooze out from the vases, possibly mutating the worms, making them into the snake alien. This could be the same black liquid drank by the engineer at the start of the movie. Which is also the one that was spiked into Charlie's drink by David, passed into Elizabeth's body, making her 3 months pregnant with an alien baby. Note that again, the baby from Elizabeth is squid like. After somehow "mating" with the Engineer at the end, then only we see the typical Alien emerging from the dead Engineer body. Perhaps it shouldn't be a question, rather the laws of mutation huh?

 
4. So in the end, what is THE Alien?

Again if you don't know science, you'll get a hard time to understand. Elizabeth is sterile- meaning she can't have babies. But it wasn't clear how was she sterile. There are many reasons- failure for the fetus to adhere to the wall of the uterus, failure to produce an ovum and so on. So depending on what are the reasons that made Elizabeth sterile, what makes up the Alien varies. It can be the black liquid itself, or it could be a mutated sperm from Charlie (*snicker), it could even be the black liquid passed and combined with Elizabeth's ovum, if the reason of her sterility was due to the fetus failure to adhere to the uterus wall. Then again, it's again imagination.

So one could go on and on the speculate and think of the reasons and possible answers to the questions above. I've had enough myself though. Time to scoot off to studies.

Definitely worth watching. Not epic, but good enough. :) 3 and a half stars out of five :D

The Kagawa and Hazard debate

I can't deny that I am visiting ESPN soccernet every now and then. Until the day Kagawa holds United jersey in his hands, I will always be on the lookout. And regarding on Hazard joining Chelsea, well I can say that I'm just pleased with the news, because I'd rather he went there rather than City.

Well then again, I won't be too please either. Chelsea has indeed look more formidable with the addition of Hazard, and not to mention Marko Marin. Chelsea's playing style will be much more pacier given that they acquired two players who excel in flanks. Put in Torres (if he does really finds his Anfield form back) and Ramires, Cole, you'll get a team that will be counter attacking menacingly.

I never quite did believed that United were on the market for Hazard. Because we already have enough wingers to last us even during the most crisis periods. Gone were the days where Darren Fletcher or John O'Shea had to be a make-used winger. Finally after waiting and waiting, SAF finally clears his mind to get an attacking midfielder with superb ball vision, shooting ability and pace - Shinji Kagawa.

Given on how Hazard handled the press, his attitude and demands, everyday my views on him keeps getting lower and lower. I used to think he was Cristiano Ronaldo 2.0. I was wrong. At least Ronaldo was not that big mouth before he arrived at United or even when he arrived at United. If Hazard was a bit more modest like Ronny, then I'll bemoan and grieve that he chose to join Chelsea and snubbed United. Thank God he was such a pain in the arse that I so willingly "celebrated" that he went to Chelsea. One other player that gave me the same feeling was when Balotelli signed for City.

I admit I like players with flair. Ronaldo was one of the first player that redefined how to excel as a winger. After the likes of David Beckham who remodeled winger as a player who assists from the flanks, Ronaldo seemed to bring back the years of George Best, cutting in from the flank with speed and scoring. So basically I should be sad that Hazard, a player with speed and flair would not be joining United. But after watching Kagawa's videos on his assists and runs, my preference towards footballing style changed.

I still remember the days Ronaldo came in. Trick pony, lousy header, and shooting with no direction. He was just like the old Joe Cole, just good at show boating. But over the years he improved, even now when he is at Madrid, he's scoring more goals than showing tricks. Goals and assists. It's all that matters. So just basically based on the goal ratios and assists, Kagawa already beat Hazard by miles.

Plus, Throw in other factors like he never needed to think which club to join after he leaves (He chose United without hesitation), he costs less, he doesn't ask for crazy wages, he doesn't ask for the famous number 7 jersey either! However, one thing Hazard beats Kagawa up till now, is his youtube videos on skills and dribbles. 


On more Hazard and Kagawa debates, go here. Article is terribly written, where the writer compares Hazard and Kagawa with absurd fashion. But rebuttal comment down there is epic... Love that guy :)

Seriously? Bullshit!

I know I have been delaying finding a job. Mostly it's because my semester is taking a turn into a hectic time (funny that I still have the mood to blog while my thesis is still undone yet).

Yes I know they are friends of mine who already got their work offers even before they graduate. Yes I know some of them are excited or elated to have got a work offer. Not for me NO. It's not like I don't care, nor I have money raining down for me everyday. It's because working in Malaysia, for me, and especially in my work field if I really go back working related to Food Technology, is pure bullshit.

(15 minutes pause or AFK)

I was busy commenting and rebutting fools on the Star Online page. In a nutshell, companies are always right when it comes to employing us, and the moment we set foot inside your company, is the moment we sell our souls to you. Going back to the food industry? NO WAY!

痛

曼市捧杯。曼联流泪。

对。空手而归的赛季。谁都不想的。更何况是在90分钟的时候，当曼市还输着球时，仿佛上天亲自把联赛杯送回曼联的手里。

加时五分钟，就知道很不对劲。还以为曼联会突然和球，哪知曼市在不可能中的不可能进了两粒进球，逆转了命运。

曼市赢球赢杯，理所当然。要怪就怪曼联不争气。领先八分却把它给丢失。看到曼市捧杯，有点羡慕，妒忌。

痛，伤心，则不是因为输了杯。而是既然有一些莫名其妙的球队粉丝高兴，是因为能看到曼联输就高兴。就有比如把高兴建立在别人的痛苦上。没办法。自己球队本季表现一般，甚至还差到不得了。寻找不到娱乐，就是来看曼联输。

Seriously I can accept City being the better club and the best club won, but I really cannot accept Chelsea and Liverpool fans are happy just because they want MU to lose. Seriously I don't really hate Liverpool and Chelsea. But damn those fans really bug me. I can stay cool, but to totally ignore is almost impossible. I'm human, and Man United is a part of me - it grows in me.

送给那些很喜欢看曼联输的人：
  
如果你看球是为了看曼联输而高兴，那么您的人生还蛮是个悲剧。小子看球是因为看球的确精彩，有趣。或许我寻索娱乐的方式，是一些没眼光的人永远都察觉不到的...

战场归战场。踢完球就该握手和好。而不是抱着仇恨，把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上。若你觉得你没错，我也没有话好说。 若你觉得利物浦，切尔西，阿森纳已经没有办法让你快乐，而你唯一看球的娱乐是看到曼联输而高兴，那英超自从2001年到现在，你高兴过几次？


Once a Devil, always a Devil. Congratulations to Man City, 2011/2012 BPL season champions.

The Rise Of The Blue Moon?

As a loyal-but-hopefully-not-biased-when-it-comes-to-logic Red Devil fan, I have to admit I had my hearts set on grabbing an unexpected win at Etihad Stadium against our noisy neighbors. But after watching the match for just 5 minutes, I'd changed my mind for just a draw. United was totally helpless and played, if not too harsh, very lousily. Seriously SAF, what did you guys trained at Wales? Well apart for the defenses who were quite steady (shaky till during approaching the end of the game), the other sectors looked terrible, not even threatening City's Joe Hart.

What went wrong?

SAF always have the knack of fielding Ji-Sung Park when it comes to big matches. But excuse me, fielding Ji-Sung Park at big matches, when it really did work, was just 2 seasons ago, mind you, against Liverpool and Arsenal. And plus, fielding Ji-Sung against Barca in the finals of Champions League was also a big mistake, where Nani should have been fielded.

So yesterday's match saw SAF again favoring the South Korean. Not that I have a grudge against this guy, but seriously guys, I wouldn't field Ji Sung who hasn't been playing regularly and again, with unknown form. And another surprise was Nani got the nod ahead of the on-form Valencia... The line up itself has already shocked me. And playing a make shift defense that differ from the one's that leaked 4 goals for Everton does seem a bit unexpected too, cause in terms of form, Evans certainly got the edge over Smalling.

When a team plays lousily, it's always the mid-field's fault. Rule of thumb. United's midfield were all over the place. Nani had no freedom down the flanks, crosses were nullify; plus playing only Rooney as a lone striker means only he himself will be in the box to accept feeds from wingers. Park was dispossessed most of the time. Even though Scholes controlled the midfield quite well, Park and Nani are the one's to blame for United's dispossession in mid-field.

Fielding a lone striker just made job easier for City. Just man mark Rooney and threat gone. Man Utd barely troubled Joe Hart, and were always scraping to defend once they were dispossessed. Practically, I'd just say I wasted my time, my precious sleeping time watching a lousy performance by United getting beaten by their rivals, and saw a big blow towards our 20th title chase.

Maybe the approach of the game was wrong. Maybe what SAF had in mind was to hold against City's firepower, who come into this match with the mentality to attack. But then again not having a good defensive midfield and Vidic at the back, devoting full time defense is not going to work against City's attacking squad. The best defense is always to attack and hold possession.

Another thing that should be noted was, City players come into this match with hunger. Their attack was lively; Nasri was causing havoc with his dribbling, and so was Yaya Toure and co. United players were playing for a draw, but things did not went well and they were buried by their own defensive tactics when Kompany rose and headed in the solitary goal of the match.

What to do?

Like it or not, this season may seem over. Unless City slip up, which is quite impossible from my perspective. United may end up trophy-less this season. I hope being trophy-less would actually wake SAF up to really splash some cash on the transfer market and getting rid of under-performing players. Chelsea have already signed Marin just for 7million pounds while Arsenal bagged Podolski for a fee of an estimated 11million, which for me both are really bargains too good to be true.

I had an argument with a Man Utd fan on a Man Utd page earlier, where he opted for SAF to acquire another defender while I was all in for a new mid-fielder. Well obviously if you can see things right now, we do really need a mid-fielder, if not 2. Shinji Kagawa of Borrusia Dortmound have already rejected an offer to stay, and from reports he'll leave for just a mere 5million pounds is even better than buying Podolski for 11 million or Marin with 7 million. Carrick's form is erratic and there should be a good replacement or plan B (maybe Carrick should just be plan B).

And please no Goatze or Hazard. Both of them are way too expensive. Plus, we have more than enough wingers already. We just need a solid playmaker and a good defensive mid-field. And if the news on Berba is leaving, then we should invest in another striker.

Regarding current crops of players, sorry but Anderson has to go. He's been injured most of the time and although he's really crafty, but it's no use having a player who can just give you 10 matches of essence a season and then get carried off to the injury room. Fletcher may not be playing for United again means the list of our central midfield grows ever thin. Even Cleverley is a long term absentee. Players like Giggs and Scholes should not be made to play every match at their current age, although they still can contribute.

Hernandez should be groomed into a goal poacher rather than a super-sub. I'd rather see Hernandez as Van Nistelrooy's shadow rather than Ole Gunnar Solskjær. Fielding him beside Rooney is better than having Rooney partnering Welbeck, who also looses possession quite easily. Seriously I really don't understand why Fergie would favor Welbeck over Hernandez...

Chelsea and Arsenal have already started preparing for next season. SAF should proceed too. And hopefully he does it right this time. *prays hard.

There is still a mathematical probability that Man Utd can end up as champions. I haven't given up. But it's already time to plan for next season... :)

Dear god. I just want Kagawa. Is that too big a wish to grant?

Seriously this guy is GOOD!