烦～～！！

当感性胜过理性时，为一个人做东西，不需要任何理由。就算需要牺牲，别人看起来是多么不值得，甚至自己也会问自己为什么这样傻，到最后还是会做。

烦。真的是烦！当理性和感性两个不同的想法相撞，真的是不知所措。到底要用Logic来解决，或者是凭着感觉去做。那头一直在想合理的方法，那心就要我以感觉来做事。

他妈的！真的很 EMO 啊～！！！！！！！

此刻，一直以理性胜过感性的我，不能不承认，已被感性化了。就靠着一丝的理性，我才没有那么鲁莽...

=(

What If -Jason Derulo-

Exactly my mood and feeling now. =) Nice song. Enjoy =)



What if?
What if I'm the one for you?
And you're the one for me?
What if...

If you are the one
Then us meeting here is fate
Future with a dog named Ben
Buy a house with a fireplace
This is the first I've seen your face
But there a chance we are soulmates
I know that this might sound crazy
You don't know my name

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

What if [6x]

Picture me on one knee
With the perfect diamond ring
We just met, but if you say "yes"
We'd have our wedding on the beach
It could happen, raise three kids
And grow old so happily
I know this may sound crazy
Cuz you don't know my name

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

Don't know what tomorrow brings
But i'm still hoping
That you are the one for me
Oh and what if I had you and what if you had me and
Baby, what's the reason we can't fall in love?
What if
What if
What if

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

Hot Property

Can a "lame" property stay un-sold for one semester? Can the buyer, be interested in it for one semester before inquiring for a purchase?

Lame because the owner appraised it too low. It's hot property from what I, the buyer sees it. This is THE ONE. How sure I am? Sometimes in such situation, it's the guts and faith that tells you what to do. That doing this something insane or crazy, is definitely worth it...

I don't know how many out there are eying the same property as I do. But I do know that I'm not the only buyer interested. And the bad part is, I'm unknown to the other buyers. How many, who's in a better position... This and that. Nada. Zero. I only know my own situation.

As I did mention in my previous post, I can only hope it stays un-sold. To wish it to stay un-sold, would be plain selfish. I have to understand the basics. The best buyer always win. It need not be the richest, or the highest bid. The one who succeed, is hence the best.

Yes. I have been out of the transfer market for like ages. Every time I kept out was because of the wrong choice.

But this is the one, that I know once I give up, it would be hard to find another similar one. Let alone a better one...

Cos it's a hot property. And every buyer, would be interested.

The only thing I can do now, is sit back and observe, for 9 effing months, as I monitor the progress of the property...

It's the only choice I have left...

And I'm seriously, INTERESTED!!!!!!!

My hope

A lot of things can happen in one semester. I can only hope, but I can't wish...

Wishing "it" would make me selfish.

For once in my life, I leave this matter, to Faith and God...

If I do get the chance, I swear, I would hold on to it, and never let you go...

对考试与考生的感触

一个sem又快过了。考试将在几天内挂上完美的结局。看到别的朋友都已纷纷考完，剩我还没考完还真有点羡慕。

不要说考试时间比较长，所以温习得比较周到。我不知道别人如何。对我来说，时间越多，浪费与蹉跎就更厉害！现在真的是后悔拿到这样一个时间表。考一科，空三天，考第二科，空一个礼拜！再来考剩下的三张。

但是可能对别人来说，这或许是一个安排到很好的时间表。可以完完全全应付每一张科目。如果您真的是如此，那我可没话好讲。但如果您和我有一样的同感，宁愿一股气冲完考试，然后再来享受假期，岂不是更好吗？不要说来不及。人生中这样多急事，咱们还不是这样度过它吗？只要有压力和冲力，一定能来得及。是看您自己相不相信自己的实力。或许现在的孩子都怕压力吧，怕到连PMR都要废除。唉～！没药救...

可能，我想东西比一般人周到。当semester还走着一半的时候，当tests都纷纷现身的时候，可以看得出，每个人都想拖，想要读多一点。如果那多一点，您真的有把握它，他是真的会帮助您。但请摸摸自己的良心。我们真的有很认真地利用时间吗？结果一拖再拖，拖到study week 之前那几个礼拜忙到好像狗酱。读书的mood和状态全都被吸光了。哇靠！真的不得了。

我还有心情在这里写部落格、指指点点。或许当初你们会觉得我很自私，什么都要快快settle. 我也想慢慢来，但我知道慢慢来都后来会给自己添加那些不必的压力和麻烦。还想起上几个sem, 还没study week 都可以开始温习了。但是这个sem... 唉。没话讲。无言。

我班上的确有几个很厉害的同学。不只厉害，而且很勤劳。可惜本人可是班上数一数二的懒惰学生。他们有真正的充分利用时间，是他们有把握好。愿望高如山的，想要每个sem都是优秀生，没有错。只是，或许只是我一个人的懒惰，似乎跟整班学生的看法完全倒反。

因为我知道，Dean list不会让我真正快乐和高兴。它只是让我有成就感。让我证明给自己和全世界，证明我，王祖龐，是会读书的人。就算我进来USM的时候，都不知道这个course要读什么鬼屁的科目，我还是照读、考试。以优秀的成绩来打到别人，来显示出我的厉害，is not my cup of tea or board of games. 这种游戏，小学玩到中学，都已经玩到很累了。我，已没有再想跟着玩下去了。

我真正快乐，是能够拥有自由，是想要做什么，就做什么。不需要想，不需要考虑。只要没有害到人，没有违反宪法、规则和道德。别人读书我打机、踢球、看戏、看球、睡觉。不是我读完了。也不是我尽力了。是我不想因为考试，而破坏我的一天可以拥有的幸福和做我想要做的事。我告诉过自己。一天的快乐与伤悲，由自己来决定。就算明天考什么鬼的科目，只要我知道我的成绩不会难看到哪里去，我会不后悔地把时间，拿来做想要做的事。


如果2012真的是世界末日，或许大学上千万的人以骄傲的成绩毕业而胜过我。但我相信，那一天死到最高兴的，没有人可以赢过我。因为我相信自己有把人生中的每一天，每一分，每一秒都活到最快乐。


"I had lived everyday of my life to it's maximum happiness. It may not be the fullest or the grandest, but at least, I was happy, am happy, and will always be happy... "

=)

*Any critics are merely coincidental and is not aimed directly to specific individuals...

我在USM两年半的感触

Okay this post was supposed to be another Chinese post. But I can't type the whole sentence and just only word by word, which is a hassle. I'll stick in English then... =)

Title translates as "My feelings during the 2 and a half years in USM". I really can't believe that I have passed 2 years plus at Penang. A lot happened during this 2 years.

Let's start from 1st year. I was still a sad and lost boy when I came in. I was still unable to accept the fact that my dream of becoming a doctor was virtually, POOF- gone. And plus the "girl" problem, life was like hell. I was so vulnerable. So lonely. Nobody understood my feelings that time. But in came the new friends that began to take away the gloom of my life. Who cares that I was the only guy in the gang that time... I had the 3 most caring "girl friends" of my life. They were really like sisters to me... Although they forbid me from calling them sisters... XD

Then came second semester. I lived a life of a lazy student. Always playing truants. For no particular reasons. Sometimes to sleep. Sometimes to play games. Miraculously, I still got a GPA above 3.00. God blessed me.

Then came second year. I promised myself it's time to get serious. Time to forget about that 'someone' who does not give a damn to my life. Time to prove that I too, can be one of the cream of the crop. The dream and desire to get a Dean list came. My neighbours saw my studying methods and all thought that I have gone mad. I succeeded in forgetting the girl that was on my mind for an effing 2 years. But I got a crush on someone I should not have. Although there were some good times, I told myself NEVER to be the 3rd party. She became my past and history swiftly. And it sucks that I did not get my wanted Dean list that semester...

2nd year semester came. That dream to get a Dean list burned brighter and brighter. My neighbours say I was even more crazier than last semester. LOL I dunno. Thanks to the distribution of the subject units, I got it, just passing the least requirement =D Dream achieved!

Now half of 3rd year is going up to smoke. I can hope as much as I can, but chances of maintaining Dean is hard. But I'm positive all will pass by smoothly. =D

And I hope it does... =D

Words of Wisdom 2

自己的优点, 由别人来发现; 自己的缺点, 由自己来改变。

Let others praise your virtues, but let it be yourself that better your weaknesses.

-jpthedarkknight-