已经很久，没有这种感觉了

已经很久，
没有这样的感性了
心好像飘飘然
好像，麻醉了...

已经很久，
没有那么的痴情了
日夜都常想起一个人
就是那么地徘徊在脑里...

已经很久，
没有那么的开心
和一个人谈起话来，
宁愿熬夜，抗拒想要闭上的眼睛

已经很久，
没有那么的紧张
当自己听到，
看上你的人，不单单是自己

已经很久，
没有那么地注重
带在身边的手机，
每条讯息，都希望是妳发来的

已经很久，
没有这样的感觉了
直到我遇到妳，
我也从来没想过，我还可以再喜欢上一个人...

Words of Wisdom

Love is like a butterfly, the more you want it, the more elusive it is to get it; Problems are like mosquitoes, the more you hate them, the more they SUCK!

-jpthedarkknight-

Kaspersky Bachelor Security

If you are looking for something regarding anti-virus, you can navigate away right now...

Back to the main topic

Yes. I currently have this anti-relationship software installed, since the "last nightmare". I vowed never to get hurt again, vow never to do something stupid again, and cry for nothing.

Good thing about this software is, it gave me 2 years of one hell of a single life. Along the road, there have been crushes, but it all went by and passed by smoothly, just like when you insert an infected thumb drive into your computer, the anti-virus sounds an alarm and most of the time, succeeds in removing the malicious malware.

Bad thing is, I feel that it's expiry date is around the corner...

Worse part of it, I think I found a "virus", who I would willingly let it take over my system...

GOD.... WHAT SHOULD I DO???????

T.T

Perspectives

Again, I dig out an old topic to discuss. Maybe not under the name of perspectives, as I don't want my posts to be the same as the title of my friend's( Khaw Wen Pin's) blog @ http://pinadelaide.blogspot.com/

But still, I used the word...

On the date 09 October 2010, I was in Taiping, as usual to spend my weekends. I have known that there will be a talk going on. An important one ( I presume)

But I chose to ignore the bloody talk and went back just as usual. One, because I trusted my group to help me in whatever situations. Two, I wanted to bid my friend Chee Wei Teh a farewell before he went back to Germany. Three, to meet up with MMU Cyber kaki's...

Things got worse when I found out that there was a case study, with a whooping 20% weight on my overall course. Thinking that there is nothing to be done, I laughed and ignored the matter...

Things got even worse when I found out that it's due date was on the coming Friday. I panicked, I sweated. My mood turned 180 degrees.

My head was turning, spinning. I gotta do something quick, fast! The way I replied my group in MSN, was somehow unacceptable. I even went to the extent of accusing them, making them scapegoats.

But then, after a while, I thought again. This time, with logic. I chose to came back, even knowing that there would be a talk. I did not ask for clear information regarding the assignment. Based on this two facts, it is already enough to condemn me a ZERO over the 20%. I deserved NOTHING!

I gradually accepted the fact. Although measures and initiatives to find a group is still on going, I have been guaranteed a life saver from my group that they will breach the rules to include me as one of their group members...

I know my group members aren't as "trustable" as others, but there are the one's that I have or got to lean on when there is a need to. Well surely they aren't quite good leaning materials, at least they are willing to pull me up when I fall down. I should be thankful for that...

And in the end, they are doing what other groups aren't doing(saving my god damn pathetic ass)

Again it goes with the title of this post. If we see things differently, the world, is actually not a bad place to live... Be positive, rather than passive.

And also, judge or see things based on logic and reality, not based on negative feelings...

*pst I was going to take that 0 marks like a man when life line drops in... GOD BLESS ME =D

Countdown for Finals and Sem Break

Current countdown for the final exam is 30 days, exactly one month. 46 days to semester break...

Again I'm doing the countdown thingy. To me, every portion of life is about looking forward for something. Whether good or bad.

I have count down for my tests, the FIFA World Cup, and my holidays. The good thing about it is, everyday when I change the numbers on my msn messenger, I'm aware that one day has passed by. How did that specific day went by? Was it a happy day?

Human brains are complicated and sophisticated. But we can never get more complicated than life. Life is always full of sadness and pain, that will make us weary. But happiness can definitely change things around, make things a little better...

I have realised a lot of things. Some I do tend to forget. Some I was lazy to post on my blog. But I know, the most important thing I have learn about life, is to always be happy, and to do the things you like most...

Study mood hasn't really quite kick in. And I don't plan to aim high this semester... A normal and peaceful semester is what I want... =D

What Do I Want??

Til this very day, since the day I gave up that dream of mine to be a doctor, I don't have a single clue of what I would be in the future. One thing is for sure. Definitely nothing to do with this course...

I'm 21 years old. Freakin 21 years on this Earth. Already in the first phase of manhood. Screw manhood. I may look like one. But I never acted like one. Inside my heart, I'm still the small boy, that wants to stay at home.

Away from the ugly truth of the society.

Away from the horrible life that we humans are bound to live.

Life. Sometimes I do ponder. What does mine signifies? What is my purpose? Is it really to live, enjoy, then leave?

Why are they those able to lead battalions of armies- generals, or why are they those able to rule over countries and govern their country. Why them, why not me?

When tough situation arises, no doubt there is a must to be brave.

But when there isn't a time to be brave, I'd rather live a quiet and peaceful life. Normal and easy life. Peace and tranquility. My do I feel happy and contend- with no greed or life achievements that I must achieve.

Can I always stay like that? I do hope so....

Terrible, Horrible Penang Drivers

This poem is directed to the horrible and terrible rich Penang drivers out there, especially the one’s with big new cars. Cos they’re always the road bullies

Every time I drive on the North-South highway

I’m bound to see something or someone crazy

Nope not accidents they’re not so frequently

Its drivers rushing like there’s no next day

When I come to Butterworth things get ugly

Big cars with number plates starting with a “P”

Again look at the numbers, they’re all the same

Of course is Chinese, you wanna bet? Game!

You are a businessman, manager so what?

You always busy so you say speeding “boh huat”

People too slow you accelerate and “cut”

Eh come on lar, toll there also wanna “cut”?

“Cut” that time also don’t want use signal

Is it no hands, or you have really short fingers?

Highway people all drive very fast you know?

Not as fast as you la, I only one one zero

I also wanna cut slow drivers

But you behind me always give me pressure

Drive so near and keep flashing me

If I emergency break, we both GG!

Press oil pedal press until so “syok”

Petrol naik you first one “beh syok”

That time see you really make me “syok”

I say to you: “ Save one time. Save lai tok?”

Really degrading my English to voice out my frustration. But still, I really hopes that it adds the “Hokkien” flavour to it….

F*CK you lousy drivers!!!

* Not all Penang drivers are dreadful. But if we were to make a poll, you’ll find the most terrible one’s all right here…