The pessimistic part of me is at work. Sometimes we look forward towards certain days that we forget, that each day we edge closer to Death.
And since one can't really tell when Death is lurking, the fear of leaving this world behind without fulfilling your self created prophecy, is indeed mind troubling.
As emo as it may seem, I think this pessimism is a dose of self realization. That the one hour time spent on movies or drama can be put to feeding the mind and soul. Helping you grasp the future you want so bad to see it coming true.
I think I should sleep lesser since I start work later. So now I'm left with this big mental challenge to squeeze in more personal time in my life...