Saturday, July 25, 2009


Why is this song called Vincent? Cos it was written in the remembrance of the great artist Vincent Van Gogh borned 30th March, which means we share the same birthday. It's such an irony that Vincent only manage to sell one painting during his entire life. His works only became well known after his death. I do admire him a lot, but I don't wanna be like him... To be precious after I have left the world...

Maybe another reason I chose this song was because I am currently watching 溏心风暴(outdated). And oh... Linda just melt my heart...

LOVE YA.... Muacks~

Starry night
Paint your palette blue and grey

Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the
Darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils

Catch the breeze and the winter chills

In colors on the snowy linen land.
And now I understand what you tried to say to me

How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
They did not know how

Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry night
Flaming flo'rs that brightly blaze

Swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in
Vincent's eyes of China blue.
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain

Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's
Loving hand.
And now I understand what you tried to say to me

How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
They did not know how

Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you
But still your love was true

And when no hope was left in sight on that starry
Starry night.
You took your life
As lovers often do;
But I could have told you
This world was never
Meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls

Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes
That watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met

The ragged men in ragged clothes

The silver thorn of bloddy rose
Lie crushed and broken
On the virgin snow.
And now I think I know what you tried to say to me

How you suffered for your sanity

How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
They're not
List'ning still
Perhaps they never will.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Weekly To-Do List

1. Gonna get myself to the gym... Build up that muscles before Redang... ^^
2. Study, study , study...
3. If there are enough people, then I may be coming back home every week... wee~^^
4. Finish Eclipse(it's almost at the end)

Morph Morph Morph, Change Change Change, Build Build Build...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

The Forgotten Poem

How I wish I was Davy Jones

With that eerie cracking tone

With my ship mates and my friends

All aboard the Flying Dutchman

Why I would want to be like him?

Cos he has no heart it seem

Long has he been hurt by love

So it was sealed like a treasure trove

Or do I look more like double O seven

With wine and women anywhere is heaven

But the only love Bond has seen

Is in the name of Vesper Lynd

Resign from 007 for her

Hope to preserve a love forever

Never knew that she was a liar

Broke Bond’s heart never mended forever

Love hurts me, grinds me

For taking away she I cannot see

But you where the sad part is

Is her calling herself His

I try to forget, delete, erase

But it was you that made me amaze

How in the world would I ever face

Without that smile on your face

Since the last time we met

News from you keep making want to be dead

But in the end I rise again

With that thought that we will see each other again

I mend my heart over and over

Yet never able to find a new lover

It’s the truth till now I cannot cover

I love you xxx forever and ever

That was the me last time, the me when I was love sick... LOL... It took me 15 minutes to come out with this... I just thought, well, since this is the last poem I wrote about love, just post it to get my loyal blog readers' comments...^^

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


LOL... it's purposely... There is no such word as nocturnel... only nocturnal or nocturne... I change it cos i wanna talk about both of it. One because I am awake and i mean wide awake, and two, its one of the song Jay Chou wrote...

The feeling, is kinda complicated, but I know how to describe it. It's like the feel is still there, but the person you have feelings for is not the person who was... She changed into someone else, someone I don't even know... Like a stranger...

I know, it's just the nostalgia, the disturbing thought, when I have nothing else to do, the mind starts to simply think...

I know I'm ready for the next one, I'm affirmative of that, but I don't think I want that so fast... I'm afraid I cannot give, afraid of commitment, afraid of failure and erm... you know...

It's seems like even the prettiest girl can't tempt me to stay in USM for the weekends... I prefer to look forward to go back home Taiping every week, if I can... Wahahaha....XD

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Forever Love Story

Thinking back my years, till this moment I'm blogging, it's impossible to find that I'm still single... I mean, I have always been single... I have never been in a relationship... LOL... I'm a real failure in relationships... OMG...

Well, there are times that I almost succeed, but, in the end, I still end up failing though... Sweat... Even in 1st year of university, where a relationships can pop up in 2 months, but it just did not happen to me...

People say I have good qualities, really typical good BF traits(dunno whether they lying or not la XD). Yeah, there are pretty girls where I find hard to resist... But speaking of relationship, eternity comes to my mind. A lot of people do not agree with this. This may be too old-fashion for people today...

Since my last attempt fail, there is this phobia, or should I say the sense of reality... I know most girls are insecure, they tend to flirt around even though they are in a relationship. How would I trust a girl like this to be my girl friend? How would I be loyal to her, bear no suspect when she is attending to other guys? Sure she may be gorgeous, but what is the point having a girl friend you have to share with other people?

Sure there are those who make me feel secure, those I think I can maintain a relationship if we both trust each other... But if the other half does not believe in love can be stronger than anything, surpassing the barrier of space and time, it would not have work out either...

A flower needs not to be the prettiest in the garden to attract me... But once I have it, I want it for myself only, not with other bees and butterflies fluttering around...

And when I say I want it, I want it forever...

Friday, July 10, 2009

I'm Back!

Sweat... by the time everyone read this, I'm already back in USM... It's been a year now, and what a year it has been... Ready to kick start my new semester when I get back... Kick my notes's ass, not forgetting to mention the small test and Finals...

I finished New Moon... Yay! Now I know why girls like Twilight so much... Altough I'm not in a relationship, I do now the feeling of romantic...

Best quote from the sequel of Twilight...

"Before you, Bella, my life was like moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars-points of light and reason. ...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

"My heart hasn't beat in ninety years, but this was different. It was like my heart was gone-like I was hollow. LIke I'd left everything that was inside me here with you."

Okay, its not a quote. A paragraph... ^^

Next comes, Eclipse

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Gundam Seed -MeTeoR-


furete temo tsumetai yubisaki
They touch, although with icy fingertips
kooritsuita tsuki ni terasarete
Illuminated by the frozen moon

hibiwareta kokoro ga moetsukiru yoru o dakukedo
My flawed heart still embraces the night, even as it burns

isshun no kanata de kirameita omoi ga ai nara maboroshi
ni shitemisete
That feeling that glittered off in the distance for a
split-second - If it's love, I'll try for that vision

hanatsu hikari sora ni ochiru nozomu dake no
netsu o sasagete
The light is freed and falls through the sky,
sacrificing its warmth only for hope

shini yuku hoshi no unda honoo ga saigo no
yume ni yakarete iruyo
The flame that's born of dying starts burns
on in this, my final dream

furitsumoru tsumi wa yasashisa ni toge wa emi
ni kaete yukeru nara
If the sin that falls and covers everything turns to
kindness, and if a thorn could become a smile

chiru magiwa no hana no todokanai sakebi nimo nita
Like the unheard scream of a flower before it falls
inori no hakanasa ga motomeru setsunasa ga futari
no deatta toki o yurasu
The pain that searches for the fragility of a prayer
stirs the period when the two of us met

nageki hikari nami ni nomare itami no naka kimi
wa mezamete
The grief and the light are swallowed up by the waves,
and in the midst of all this pain, you awaken

kizutsuketa kara dekiru kizuna ga kodoku o ima
egaki hajimeru
This bond that could be created because we were hurt
is beginning to paint over the loneliness

sosogu inochi kizamu hana de kimiyo douka boku
o tsutsunde
Pouring my life into this; with whatever wings you
have left -I'm begging you, please wrap me up in them

hikari wa mata sora ni ochiru nozomu dake no netsu
o sasagete
The light again falls though the sky, sacrificing
its warmth only for hope

kuzure ochiyuku ayamachi no hate saigo no yume
o mi tsuzuketeruyo
This mistake caves in and comes to an end, and my final
dream continues on

Start Of Second Year

Holidays finally came to an end
Mountains of notes I have to fend
Problems in study I have to tend
Study groups together we tend

I will miss my mum's cooking
And of course also her nagging
Last time giving the piano a drumming
Till holidays once again coming

So sad, only one time of durian
This made my holidays so kelian

Life is always on a run
Out goes the moon, in comes the sun
I hope I won't be seeking for fun
When my homework is not yet done

A new life, a new sem begins
Insert virtue, dispose sins
Brimming full, not an empty tin
Say it again:" I can win!"

I'm once again in my poetry mood. So far when life is down. I found that it is effective to calm down and look at things the different perspective. Sad. I have to blog on Microsoft Office before uploading it every week due to the "noobness" of so-called APEX USM... It's gonna be tough next semester. But that is life. It keeps getting tougher and tougher... Gambateh!

Friday, July 3, 2009


1. Ah Parn
2. 祖庞
3. Ah Pang
4. Phang Phang~ ( this one tat bit geli~)

1. 30.03.every year
2. 01.01.every year
3. 14.02.every year(reserve, by the way. Still S&A)
4. -Reserve- "her" birthday XD

1. Pet Society(OMG!)
2. Facebook
3. Erm.. Piano?
4. Day dream...

1. Play
2. Sleep
3. Eat
4. Friends!

1. KMM bros(ultimate privellage)
2. KMM 7 fa
3. My Hua Lian friends
4. All my friends who has played a part in my past. I'm sorry if we do not crossed paths again. But once a friend, always a friend...

1. Man Utd memorabilia
2. Gundam or Transformers models..
3. Pretty girl can??
4. As if 4 is enogh for me to write. Better give me cash to buy myself

1. Listen song
2. Play CPU
3. Piano
4. Sports

1. Europe
2. Hawaii
3. North America
4. Around the world...

1. Punch( fruit cocktail)
3. Orange juice
4. White coffee

1. Pencil box
2. Notes
3. Notes
4. Mini umbrella

1. Red
2. Black
3. White
4. Blue

1. Taiping Sentral(damn boring place)
2. A Rahman(mamak^^)
3. Esplanade(football!)
4. Tesco(shopping with mum)

1. Family
2. -reserved-(ngek ngek ngek)
3. Future
4. Manchester United

1. -reserved-(ngek ngek ngek)
2. my sis(abnormally noisy and nosy)
3. my family
4. my future

1. TCY!
2. Su Lin?
3. Gackyz?
4. Any one?

1. because i found this in my NS brother mia blog
2. nothing to do loh...
3. boredom
4. boredom

1. Evonne
2. Tan Choon Yean
3. Benjamin Poh
4. Gackyz
5.Anyone who reads this(ngek ngek ngek~)

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Ice Age 3 Dawn Of The Dinosaurs Movie Review

I've watched this yesterday.. The starting was a bit boring. I thought it was going to let me down, but luckily when they went to the underground dinosaur world, it really crack up. LOL... Really... Some of the jokes are so dumb. To stop yourself laughing louder and louder is impossible, what more stop laughing... XD

Manny the mammoth is expecting the birth of his baby with Ellie. Diego found out it was time to move on, as he cannot see Manny and them as a team again. Sid the sloth founds 3 dinosaur eggs and took care of them until they hatched, and trouble starts when mummy dino came up to the Ice Age world and took back her newborns with Sid back underground where dinosaurs lived... Manny, Diego, Ellie, Crash and Eddie went down to find Sid.


Ellie, or ele? Herm.. The name and the body size does look familiar. TCY, whose that?



Crash & Eddie

Luckily they met, Buck who guided them through the dangerous world, going pass The Mysterious Jungle, The Lava Fall, bla bla bla to save back Sid...

Crash:" What is that sound?"
Buck:" Its the wind. It is talking to us."
Eddie:" What's it saying?"
Buck:" I dunno. I don't speak wind.." XD

Moral of the story. Friends are the ones who tell us:" Hey don't worry, I've your back" There are the ones that we can count on when our family are not there. So, stay true to all your friends. Every problem has it's solution, and by overcoming each obstacles, we build a stronger bond with each other...

PS. By the way, Scrat got himsalf a new girlfriend^^ Swt.. He supplies most of the laughter..


Scrat's girlfriend^^

The Becoming of A Man 2?

Actually I wanted to go out this morning for breakfast with my friends. But when I tell dad, his response was sooo negative. Like I'm not at home all the time. Please la... I may go out all the time, but compared with my other friends, I am already the stay-at-home type of guy. My friends go to the Cybercafe almost everyday, I have been there for FIVE times in 2 months.

Morover, I have my meals with my family everyday, every meal, JUST EXECEPT for 1 or 2 times(friends' birthday celebration). What I am giving my dad, my family is what most of a kid of my age give to their family during the weekends... To me, everyday is a Family Day. We almost do everything together.. Isn't that enough?

Maybe I think myself as a man.. Do you guys still ask for permission to go out? I think I have already reach the stage when a notification is suffice... So I just muttered in silence when my dad told me that I should ask for permission and NOT notify them...

The worst thing is, he actually compared me with my brother. Why I'm so outgoing, why can't I be like him, stay at home... Bored to death... Maybe I should have answered him... Bro got your genes, while I got mum's.

The world is always like this. I always give. But in the end, it's the people around me who finds that it is so hard to give in to me, even that little. A lot of things have happened. Tears even stream down from the guy in the mirror who I see is going to be a man. Yet, fretting is useless as I know the world out there is even worse...

But of course, those who hurt you the most are the ones you love most...

Man In The Mirror

This song is sooo.. like me... I see myself as a person who is able to change the world. But of all the changes I were to make, I were to change myself first... So, the brilliant dream of mine, starts with changing the ways of the man in the mirror...

-Man In The Mirror- (Michael Jackson)

I'm Gonna Make A Change
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right...

As I, Turn Up The Collar On
My Favorite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere To Go
That's Why I Want You To Know

I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways
And No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na, Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of
A Selfish Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No Home
Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me
Pretending That They're Not Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways
And No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change)

I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror
(Ooh!)v I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make That...
(Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make That...)

I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror-Oh Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your Heart)
You Can't Close Your...Your Mind!
(Then You Close Your...Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know...That Man
No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na, Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na, Na Nah
Oh No, No No....
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change ...)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change, Today!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself...Brother...
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get That Man, That Man...
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come On! Come On!
You Got To...
Stand Up! Stand Up! Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change...
Come On! (Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know...
Make That Change