Dumb

Okay I dunno why I started liking rap

It’s like a poison that spreads you need not to adapt

And it does not need to sound nice or even freaking rhyme

All you need is a fast mouth to catch the beat and time

It all started writing poetry for the sake of writing poetry

And then I started listening to Eminem and then life got crazy

And never thought that loving you made me more crazy

But the cold shoulder you gave me made me fall into the abyss

Is it the feelings I conveyed to you on January the 3^rd?

Or is it the sonnet I wrote to you on freakin Valentine?

Or is it the constant care that you treated as a freak’s harassment?

You make me sound like a fool for everything I do I am wrong

Do you remember the times when we would chat endlessly?

Or the times I would wait blindly for you to even appear online

Cause now the only freaking thing I think I am waiting

Is a backlash from you that’s gonna slap me real hard in the face

Did I talk too much, no no heck we’re like strangers now

Did I give too much? Heck you’d push back everything I tried to give

Know that loving you was never a choice for me

But for treating me as a friend or a jerk, you choose the latter for me

So now what, my life is in topsy turvy

I dunno how to get you off my f*cking mind oh God help me

Sometimes I feel it’s better to sleep and have nightmares

But the damning fact is that nightmares wake me up to reality

Where I know every single message goes without a reply

And every single comment on your status goes to your blind eye

I tried to be casual, normal and friendly

But at the end of the day, you’d still f*cking ignoring me

Note that I never say I love you or I miss you all those truths

Cause I know it don’t matter you aren’t even treating me as a normal friend to start with

Normal conversations break off as if I’m talking to the wall

Oh no wait, I forgot, Bruno says it is me talking to the moon

If a total erase is what you want

Then tell me in the face, don’t act like I’m invisible, and I’ll give you what you want

I don’t know what a silent treatment holds

Just say:”F*CK OFF!” and I’ll disappear and letting you go…

COOL? XD

Food For Thought On Reality (Love)

It is a fact, that the University is the best place to find a soul mate. If you graduate as a bachelor (for guys), chances are you will stay single for quite some time (even forever!)... So yeah... I have to admit... I am desperate... But if it is fated that I will be single for the rest of my life, I'd accept, but not without giving in a fight. For girls it's okay, as long as if you have the looks, you needn't care about being single for your life...

Well maybe some of you might say that there are better chances while working. You may be right, if you have been in the working society yourself and witnessed it. I on the other hand, am currently undergoing my industrial training, or simply internship, has found that this statement of better chance during working is absolutely W-R-O-N-G. Not only there are a freaking damn few choices, hark you would even regret for not finding one in the University. It’s that sad. And to think of it, you would be so busy working that the only time you have to find a soul mate is just looking at her. You’d still need to court, this and that, and also consider her relationship status availability.

At the university, who cares? 8 or 9 stones out of the 10 you throw would surely hit a single and available girl. I won’t talk about looks or preference. It’s too subjective. Heck even if that girl has a boyfriend, it is NOT WRONG at all to go for her. Which line in the law does it state that you can’t play the third party in a relationship? It’s not even morally wrong to begin with! But for me, I honestly don’t like playing bad guy. But if you think she is the one, go for it. The lightning will not strike you for committing a crime.

Where else in a working society, heck that girl you’re eying is maybe close to engagement. And you’re going to break you heart for something ain’t realistic and achievable. Precisely.

And you still think that you can find the princess of your dreams in the working world. If you still think so, good luck. One last point. Even in a working world, you’re not the only guy looking for a soul mate. The battle just gets a little fiercer… ;) Don't forget there ARE a lot of single guys who failed finding a girl at the University...

My advice, get your arses working. Go get the girl that you’ve been thinking of. Even if she has a boy friend, go for it, if you really like her. There is no rights and wrongs in love.

Only the best man wins… He who wins, wins all

And for those who wanna question me on my situation, I too have tried. Heck I'd even sacrifice everything. My current situation, is like a game of lousy poker. No trump cards. No royal flush, no one of a kind, no pairs. Nada. Just bunch of lousy cards. But I'd thrown in every chip I have, all in (yeah I'm that crazy).

No way there is a way of winning, but I'd still go all in. The only chance I have is, touching the girl's heart with my stupidity and idiocy that she would fold her cards and let me win...

Oh man.. I am such a lousy poker player... >.<

Perfect Nightmare

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it, I already know I don't deserve it, but if it's from you I don't mind hurting, This is my perfect nightmare, so when will I wake up and scream no way?

Perhaps I won't. My life would be in eternal nightmare if that should be the case. But if you're in it, I don't mind and don't give a damn! =)

Sometimes we fight
Sometimes I cry
Why don't I just tell her goodbye
Sometimes I should but
Sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to say that its wrong
Sometimes I hate sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait for him to change
But its okay I just got to pay (yeah)

And I don't ever wanna leave em' alone
They say I'm brain washed but I'm in love with this girl (yeahhh)


Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if its from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way , no way , no way ,no way , no way , no way , no way
But if its from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)

Sometimes I keep it cool
Sometimes I let 'em know sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door


Sometimes I feel safe
Sometimes I really don't
Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let 'em go but I don't ever wanna leave 'em alone
They say I'm brain washed but I'm in love with this girl (ooooh)

Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if its from you I don't mind hurting
She is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

No way , no way , no way ,no way , no way , no way , no way but if its from you I dont mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)

Hopin' she's changing but I'm scared she's not cant see a way to leave her she open'd my eyes and I..

Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if its from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if its from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

Sorry Seems To Be Hardest Word

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

你喜欢白羊座的人吗?

白羊座的人――不会随便爱上一个人。

白羊座的人――很专一又很滥情。一旦真正喜欢上一个人就会很致命，一直把你牢记在心。

白羊座的人――很容易被感动。

白羊座的人――很敏感，看似什么都不计较、不细心，其实是在包容你，所以会装作什么都不知道。

白羊座的人――很正义，讨厌虚伪、谎言，讨厌欺骗。

白羊座的人――吃软不吃硬，要知道双鱼座脾气很硬，不会允许别人的不信任和挑战。

白羊座的人――很重感情，只要是真心认定的朋友，都会真心对待。

白羊座的人――很浪漫，最讨厌软弱拖拉的人，更讨厌自以为是的人。

白羊座的人――不习惯主动和别人套近乎。

白羊座的人――决定要做的事，就会坚持到底。

白羊座的人――可以看着喜欢的人转身离开，望着他的背影泪流满面，却不敢开口挽留。

白羊座的人――很开朗，不开心的时候会故意隐藏自己，总是想把自己装的更独立更坚强。

白羊座的人――其实没那么重的生理洁癖，只是精神洁癖更严重。

白羊座的人――表面坚强，嘴巴硬，其实内心很容易受到伤害。

白羊座的人――总是很任性和小孩子气的固执，即使是错，下次还是固执。

白羊座的人――很胆小又害怕失败，但表现出来的都是强悍的一面。

白羊座的人――生气的小事很快就会忘记，不记仇。

白羊座的人――别人对自己的好会铭记于心，有恩必报。

白羊座的人――不善表达自己的情感，所以常常用沉默取代表达。

白羊座的人――最不能接受朋友的不信任、出卖和背叛。

白羊座的人――现在的生活很迷茫，找不到出口，但对未来坚定而充满希望。

Valentine's

Black are her eyes, black as ebony

Black but with a sparkle that captures me

Her hair are of amber flowing down naturally

Concealing the face every man would die to see

Yes thou aren’t the fairest of them all

But then again, you made me stutter and fall

Beauty and fair should never be put together

Cos when comes beauty there is no other

The times that we’ve met can be counted

The conversations we’ve had even more limited

So don’t ask me why I fell for you

Even me myself don’t have a clue

We’ve been chatting less lately

Maybe you’re busy, maybe afraid of me

Afraid that you’re irritated by me

I suppress the urge to talk with you forcefully

Sometimes I just can’t sit still in my cell

When I know that you are unwell

Pardon me for being a busy body

I meant only to concern, care and worry

Last of all, grant me an apology

Was told to rub you off, I didn’t, sorry;

Even if I try, it’s going to be very hard

To forget someone etched deep in my heart.

I know I gave you a shock when I told you about “that thing”. I’m sorry. I know that I’m no hot handsome guy, nor do I have talents and skills that would sweep you off your feet.

And I’m no prince clad in shining armour to take you off to a castle.

I’m just a normal guy, who fell for the most amazing girl in my life… =)

我爱的人...

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说"我们"
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说"我们"
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

兔年

虎年行好运。那是一年前的祝贺。很快就要新年了。兔年到了！时间还真的过得很快！

在这里祝福每一位身体健康，万事如意，恭喜发财。第200张发帖... 我的部落格在慢慢长大了 =D



Still have fond memories of last year's Chines New Year. Last year's celebration was still fresh in my mind. Never thought time flew passed me like a breeze. Yet a lot has passed. It's normal to look back on the happy times, approximately one year ago. On such joyous occasion, one is sure to ponder and look back, cherish the moments. My time as a small boy is running out. But I want to hold on to every second of it, even though I know, it is impossible.

Still, the choice of living is mine to decide. I would be the same small boy that I love to be, until someone changes me, or till I meet someone who I am willing to change for... =)

Happy Chinese New Year. And may everyone enjoy the year of the Rabbit. Treasure the present, cos it will be the year of the Dragon, very very soon!

200th post for my blog. It's growing and getting bigger! =)