A Soulmate

I really envy people who dates each other for a long time.

The longer the better. And then they end up married to each other. Happy ending.

In someways I am old fashioned. I think it's better for a guy and a girl to date each other for a long period (a minimum of 5 years) before ending up getting married.

Cause these days, I think people say "I do" a bit too abruptly. Or maybe triggered by an event which accelerates everything.

Maybe it is not 100% guaranteed, but the longer you know someone, the better you understand someone.  People may change during the years but I think there is some truth in that previous sentence. And to be able to be in a relationship for more than 5 years, not only you know him or her well, you are well prepared to tolerate the good and bad side of them.

In another way also, 5 years of being in a boy girl relationship and still loving each other, feeling that the other half completes you is a short test of endurance for the many years to come.

But then again, factoring the golden and preferable age for a woman to get pregnant (early 30s), I should be in a relationship by now. Then get married after 5 years +.

Oh God. Why am I still single...

The Path To Greatness

"The path to greatness has always been unconventional

Dare to be different"

-Ong Joo Parn 25th June 2014

I am a man of my words. A believer of sayings. A conjurer of quotes.

Many great men gave famous speeches and quotes. Who knows what the future holds for me?

More often or not, quotes and sayings don't just come up like a lightning out of the blue. Even a lightning needs a storm cloud as a prelude.

There I was. Seeing the me 1 year ago. Eagerly fighting to be one of the selected 12. Honestly, I never did thought of making to the final round. 

Back then, joining the company was my self perceived cognitive dissonance to a path of greatness. To which now I clearly disagree to what I believed back then.

I am not being pessimistic though. I have seen more. Heard more. Learned more. If greatness was a path so easily attained and straight forward, there would be more than one Apple, more than one Google. More than one Thomas Edison so and so forth.

The path to greatness is always the road less or not taken.That's why there will always be one Steve Jobs. One Elon Musk. One Richard Branson.

One ME.

There And Back Again

It always feels good to get a brief escape back to the town I grown up.

I feel safe over there. I feel familiar and accustomed to everything there.

Never needed air conditioner over there as even in dire situations, it can be tolerated or I could easily go out somewhere without being afraid of stuck in a jam.

I've mentioned countless amount of time. The feeling of wanting to turn back the clock and live the life of a boy, yet to experience the hardship and pain everyone one of us have to overcome in the working world.

Back then, everything was purely academic. Even the stress which we all thought was agonizing, is just a speck of what we face now in our daily life. Back then, I would say that even there wasn't any homework-life balance, life was indeed better than now. Cause back then, we only need to worry about our studies.

Eventually we came to a crossroad where we had to determine what and where to go. Usually for the group of people I know, there's only 3 major choices. Either its going to Penang or to KL, or it's staying put at Taiping.

I've briefly gone through all 3 of them. I had a brief spell of becoming a waiter in Taiping itself. Life as a waiter wasn't as easy as I imagined. I learn a lot but I felt that someone with my capabilities shouldn't be doing something well below my abilities.

Then I went to Penang. Life was good in the sense of my work was work life balance. Start work and end work on time. Life was supposed to be great as it involves me traveling around. But gosh it is tiring to drive daily up and down and left and right.

At last here I am at KL. A chance came knocking on the door to bring me to the capital where I know chances and opportunities are of abundance. A place where the best of the best come and face each other off, taking the sides of giant corporations, MNCs or small yet fast moving companies. And yes that also includes me in my current situation.

However, life will still lead me to a crossroad when the time comes. When I have a family, it would really make me ponder whether to stay on in this bustling city or move back to the countryside...

There and back again after 2 days. Will there ever be a there and back again after 5-10 years? Well best we just focus on tomorrow and let everything unfold

Perspective

There's always someone out there who will tell you "the grass is always greener on the other side..."

Well there's also Aesop telling you that a fox deemed some grapes high up the vines sour and unripe just because he couldn't get to them.

Well just because some people around you may be contented eating the same grass everyday, and telling you that grapes on the top part of the vines are sour, it doesn't mean that they're right.

In fact, most likely you're wrong to follow their thinking.

Wrong in the sense that what they want may not be what you want. Some may want to live ordinary lives. Others may want to go on an adventure. Some prefer climbing corporate ladders. Others prefer to make a difference.

No right nor wrong. It's just a matter of perspective.

The Light At The End of The Tunnel?

Let's be honest and frank. Straight to the point shall we?

I'm not happy with my life. I'm not reading or learning new things. My job takes up almost all of my day. I spend my weekend trying to recuperate but still haunted by my job. I sleep to relieve stress yet it takes up my time to do what I like. Heck even the things that I like to do seems bland.

Nope I'm not loosing focus. I think I am too engross in some major parts of my work that I let slipped a few things. Not that it's something that I'm proud of though. In fact it makes my life more miserable. The anxiety and self-doubts sky rocket.

I am indeed going through a tough time lately. Maybe it's a small issue or obstacle to some. But it is definitely a rough time for me. Untimely also as I have already made up some key decisions which would be a turning point of my life.

Since a few hours back till now, I feel a little more at ease. I spent my night talking to a good friend. Pouring out my bitter moments. She gave her advice and motivation as best as she could.

And then we talk about our future. Her present but my yet to realized future, as she is now enjoying the life she had yearned for and achieved.

Me? Mine is still a dream. A dream that I failed to realize a few weeks back. She talk about hers. I talk about mine. I talk and talk on this dream company of mine. All through the info I've learnt from Internet and my best pal who's working there.

I felt excited and happy to be able to tell people, that such a company exists out there. An office as cool as Google's office. Voted the world's most democratic workplace. A place where personal growth is valued. A place where people go in and learn, and leave to realize the bigger part of their dreams.Zentrepreneruship. Incitement. Project Renaissance. Collecting the world's brightest minds together to make a change. 

Sounds unbelievable? Well let me open your eyes for you if you can't...