在梅边

觉得这首歌里面的歌词很有意思和意义...

"这厢是 梦梅恋上画中的仙 那厢是 丽娘为爱消香殒碎

为了爱 不吃不喝不睡 但穿过千年爱情不再流行生死相恋
爱是什么 什么是爱 接近以后就电 喜欢以后就追 腻了以后就飞
但亲爱 我为你狂 我为你变 就让我爱你爱的很深很远很古典 "

在梅边不知爱何时出现 在现实生活还是只能在梦里面...

在梅边

烦～～！！

当感性胜过理性时，为一个人做东西，不需要任何理由。就算需要牺牲，别人看起来是多么不值得，甚至自己也会问自己为什么这样傻，到最后还是会做。

烦。真的是烦！当理性和感性两个不同的想法相撞，真的是不知所措。到底要用Logic来解决，或者是凭着感觉去做。那头一直在想合理的方法，那心就要我以感觉来做事。

他妈的！真的很 EMO 啊～！！！！！！！

此刻，一直以理性胜过感性的我，不能不承认，已被感性化了。就靠着一丝的理性，我才没有那么鲁莽...

=(

What If -Jason Derulo-

Exactly my mood and feeling now. =) Nice song. Enjoy =)



What if?
What if I'm the one for you?
And you're the one for me?
What if...

If you are the one
Then us meeting here is fate
Future with a dog named Ben
Buy a house with a fireplace
This is the first I've seen your face
But there a chance we are soulmates
I know that this might sound crazy
You don't know my name

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

What if [6x]

Picture me on one knee
With the perfect diamond ring
We just met, but if you say "yes"
We'd have our wedding on the beach
It could happen, raise three kids
And grow old so happily
I know this may sound crazy
Cuz you don't know my name

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

Don't know what tomorrow brings
But i'm still hoping
That you are the one for me
Oh and what if I had you and what if you had me and
Baby, what's the reason we can't fall in love?
What if
What if
What if

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

Hot Property

Can a "lame" property stay un-sold for one semester? Can the buyer, be interested in it for one semester before inquiring for a purchase?

Lame because the owner appraised it too low. It's hot property from what I, the buyer sees it. This is THE ONE. How sure I am? Sometimes in such situation, it's the guts and faith that tells you what to do. That doing this something insane or crazy, is definitely worth it...

I don't know how many out there are eying the same property as I do. But I do know that I'm not the only buyer interested. And the bad part is, I'm unknown to the other buyers. How many, who's in a better position... This and that. Nada. Zero. I only know my own situation.

As I did mention in my previous post, I can only hope it stays un-sold. To wish it to stay un-sold, would be plain selfish. I have to understand the basics. The best buyer always win. It need not be the richest, or the highest bid. The one who succeed, is hence the best.

Yes. I have been out of the transfer market for like ages. Every time I kept out was because of the wrong choice.

But this is the one, that I know once I give up, it would be hard to find another similar one. Let alone a better one...

Cos it's a hot property. And every buyer, would be interested.

The only thing I can do now, is sit back and observe, for 9 effing months, as I monitor the progress of the property...

It's the only choice I have left...

And I'm seriously, INTERESTED!!!!!!!

My hope

A lot of things can happen in one semester. I can only hope, but I can't wish...

Wishing "it" would make me selfish.

For once in my life, I leave this matter, to Faith and God...

If I do get the chance, I swear, I would hold on to it, and never let you go...

对考试与考生的感触

一个sem又快过了。考试将在几天内挂上完美的结局。看到别的朋友都已纷纷考完，剩我还没考完还真有点羡慕。

不要说考试时间比较长，所以温习得比较周到。我不知道别人如何。对我来说，时间越多，浪费与蹉跎就更厉害！现在真的是后悔拿到这样一个时间表。考一科，空三天，考第二科，空一个礼拜！再来考剩下的三张。

但是可能对别人来说，这或许是一个安排到很好的时间表。可以完完全全应付每一张科目。如果您真的是如此，那我可没话好讲。但如果您和我有一样的同感，宁愿一股气冲完考试，然后再来享受假期，岂不是更好吗？不要说来不及。人生中这样多急事，咱们还不是这样度过它吗？只要有压力和冲力，一定能来得及。是看您自己相不相信自己的实力。或许现在的孩子都怕压力吧，怕到连PMR都要废除。唉～！没药救...

可能，我想东西比一般人周到。当semester还走着一半的时候，当tests都纷纷现身的时候，可以看得出，每个人都想拖，想要读多一点。如果那多一点，您真的有把握它，他是真的会帮助您。但请摸摸自己的良心。我们真的有很认真地利用时间吗？结果一拖再拖，拖到study week 之前那几个礼拜忙到好像狗酱。读书的mood和状态全都被吸光了。哇靠！真的不得了。

我还有心情在这里写部落格、指指点点。或许当初你们会觉得我很自私，什么都要快快settle. 我也想慢慢来，但我知道慢慢来都后来会给自己添加那些不必的压力和麻烦。还想起上几个sem, 还没study week 都可以开始温习了。但是这个sem... 唉。没话讲。无言。

我班上的确有几个很厉害的同学。不只厉害，而且很勤劳。可惜本人可是班上数一数二的懒惰学生。他们有真正的充分利用时间，是他们有把握好。愿望高如山的，想要每个sem都是优秀生，没有错。只是，或许只是我一个人的懒惰，似乎跟整班学生的看法完全倒反。

因为我知道，Dean list不会让我真正快乐和高兴。它只是让我有成就感。让我证明给自己和全世界，证明我，王祖龐，是会读书的人。就算我进来USM的时候，都不知道这个course要读什么鬼屁的科目，我还是照读、考试。以优秀的成绩来打到别人，来显示出我的厉害，is not my cup of tea or board of games. 这种游戏，小学玩到中学，都已经玩到很累了。我，已没有再想跟着玩下去了。

我真正快乐，是能够拥有自由，是想要做什么，就做什么。不需要想，不需要考虑。只要没有害到人，没有违反宪法、规则和道德。别人读书我打机、踢球、看戏、看球、睡觉。不是我读完了。也不是我尽力了。是我不想因为考试，而破坏我的一天可以拥有的幸福和做我想要做的事。我告诉过自己。一天的快乐与伤悲，由自己来决定。就算明天考什么鬼的科目，只要我知道我的成绩不会难看到哪里去，我会不后悔地把时间，拿来做想要做的事。


如果2012真的是世界末日，或许大学上千万的人以骄傲的成绩毕业而胜过我。但我相信，那一天死到最高兴的，没有人可以赢过我。因为我相信自己有把人生中的每一天，每一分，每一秒都活到最快乐。


"I had lived everyday of my life to it's maximum happiness. It may not be the fullest or the grandest, but at least, I was happy, am happy, and will always be happy... "

=)

*Any critics are merely coincidental and is not aimed directly to specific individuals...

我在USM两年半的感触

Okay this post was supposed to be another Chinese post. But I can't type the whole sentence and just only word by word, which is a hassle. I'll stick in English then... =)

Title translates as "My feelings during the 2 and a half years in USM". I really can't believe that I have passed 2 years plus at Penang. A lot happened during this 2 years.

Let's start from 1st year. I was still a sad and lost boy when I came in. I was still unable to accept the fact that my dream of becoming a doctor was virtually, POOF- gone. And plus the "girl" problem, life was like hell. I was so vulnerable. So lonely. Nobody understood my feelings that time. But in came the new friends that began to take away the gloom of my life. Who cares that I was the only guy in the gang that time... I had the 3 most caring "girl friends" of my life. They were really like sisters to me... Although they forbid me from calling them sisters... XD

Then came second semester. I lived a life of a lazy student. Always playing truants. For no particular reasons. Sometimes to sleep. Sometimes to play games. Miraculously, I still got a GPA above 3.00. God blessed me.

Then came second year. I promised myself it's time to get serious. Time to forget about that 'someone' who does not give a damn to my life. Time to prove that I too, can be one of the cream of the crop. The dream and desire to get a Dean list came. My neighbours saw my studying methods and all thought that I have gone mad. I succeeded in forgetting the girl that was on my mind for an effing 2 years. But I got a crush on someone I should not have. Although there were some good times, I told myself NEVER to be the 3rd party. She became my past and history swiftly. And it sucks that I did not get my wanted Dean list that semester...

2nd year semester came. That dream to get a Dean list burned brighter and brighter. My neighbours say I was even more crazier than last semester. LOL I dunno. Thanks to the distribution of the subject units, I got it, just passing the least requirement =D Dream achieved!

Now half of 3rd year is going up to smoke. I can hope as much as I can, but chances of maintaining Dean is hard. But I'm positive all will pass by smoothly. =D

And I hope it does... =D

Words of Wisdom 2

自己的优点, 由别人来发现; 自己的缺点, 由自己来改变。

Let others praise your virtues, but let it be yourself that better your weaknesses.

-jpthedarkknight-

Thank You For The Broken Heart - J. Rice (Lyrics and song)

Nice song! Enjoy! =) A perfect song for your ex who has hurt you. At least he or she taught you something... Thank him or her for that =D

Everything I know about love, I learn from you, from you
And everything I know about pain, I learn from you, you
You were my only, you were my first
You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt
But the most important thing you ever gave me was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart
And thank you for the permanent scar
'Cause If It wasn't for you, I might have forget how It feels to let go
and how It feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

I still remember when you called and said that he, didn't mean anything
And how could you expect me to, look at you, the same way
You were my only, but not my last
You showed me lonely, and you made me put you in the past
But the most important thing you ever gave me was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart
Oh yeah yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar
'Cause If it wasn't for you, I might have forget how It feels to let go and how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

And every time I find myself alone in pieces
I find myself
I'll just remember when you hurt me, and I made it

So thank you for the broken heart
And thank you for the permanent scar
'Cause If It wasn't for you, I wouldn't be here, for the love of my life,
All my pain disappeared, I've come so far
So thank you for the broken heart
I thank you, I thank you, for the broken heart
Broken heart, my broken heart
I'll never have a broken heart again

Love The Way You Lie Part 2 - Rihanna feat Eminem

Oh yeah. Am I glad to proudly announce that there is a part two. I heard it today on RED FM, can't believe it and came back and search for it. Now just waiting for the official MV =). Try searching here and after the 1 minute, you'll get the whole song...

Lyrics -

[Rihanna]
On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna]
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war, you'll always win
Even when I'm right
'Cause you feed me fables from your hand
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]

[Rihanna]
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
Til the walls are goin' up
In smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
This house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
With you I'm in my fuckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

ADIDAS

ADIDAS. Ambition. Dream. Inspiration. Determination. Achievement. Sanguine.

-jpthedarkknight-

Sorry to ADIDAS for making an acronym out of it's name. But yeah, I do hope that the headquarters find this out and make this their acronym for ADIDAS, if it is cool ;)

Thanks for teaching me this lesson: "Impossible Is Nothing"

=D

Q&A On The Blogger Himself, Jpthedarkknight And His Blog Diaries Of The Untold =p

The one and only, -Jpthedarkknight-

We were fortunate that we were able to interview the author himself, on his blog, the Diaries Of The Untold. Below is the full account of the interview.

Q: Hello jpthedarkknight. It's a pleasure that you are able to spend your time on this interview. We are know that this is your exam week, and the fact that you are still willing to sacrifice time for this makes us grateful.
A: Oh it's nothing. It's my pleasure too to be able to let my readers know more about me and my
blog. =)

Q: Can I first ask why you started this blog?
A: Actually to be frank, this isn't my first blog. My first blog was my blog at Friendster. That was during my matriculation time. It started with some emotional ramblings. And that's how it went on. What ramblings? Hmm... Ramblings on what I am frustrated on, what I wanted, what I wanted to do. And yeah, on my previous and quite serious crush on XXX.

Q: Oh, that's how it started. Regarding to your present blog, the one we are talking about now. Why Diaries Of The Untold?
A: Hmm. What I write in my blog, usually you don't catch me saying it out during my real life, or feelings that I do not show out. So it's kinda like a place where I pour out my thoughts, my views. Of course they are not always right. But yeah, I do think there are some truths in my thoughts and views. So as it is a blog, which I somehow write what I feel and think, it's like a Diary and the fact that I never tell or say it out loud, certainly makes my blog posts, Untold. And yeah for those who don't read my blog, it forever remains Unknown to them. I specifically chose the word Untold, as whoever does visit my blog, I'm sure that my posts aren't Unknown to them.

Q: Oh I see. Nice title then(self praising my self! OMG XD). So everything you write in your blog, is real? I mean there is no tricks up your sleeves that you might, you know, like shoot someone in the dark or play psychological games?
A: LOL! (rolls eyes and laugh). Like I said. Posts are of my thoughts. My thinking. My view. I don't deny that I may be wearing a mask in life, during MSN chats, and most of all, Facebook, but I dare say that I don't lie here at my blog. It's my space, one place that I created. If anyone does not like it or disagree, they can choose not to visit my blog. And they can't ask me what not to write and tell me what is wrong. Like I said, it's my point of view. That's something you can't really change. But yeah, I welcome suggestions and debates, with manners. And of course, I write with the consideration of not provoking or defaming others. So far there isn't any problem I've encountered that I've write bad things, save one.

Q: What incident was that?
A: Hmm... I wrote a poem saying bad things on one of my friends. I decline to be questioned further on this matter, but if I were to turn back the clock, I'd wish I could stop myself for being that irrational. I wanted to erase that post after realizing my mistake, but another friend of mine suggests that it is better to apologize rather than erase the post and act if like it never happened. So I wrote another poem to apologize. After that incident, I've learned to be more rational, and to think before I write something.

Q: Nobody is perfect. It was a tough one, but surely a good lesson. What separates you with other bloggers? There are so many types of bloggers. Which kind are you?
A: My posts are based on thoughts, my thinking and yeah, my point of view. I think that there aren't much this type of blogger, save those political leaders' blogs. So far I have come across one or two. Most of the blog types I come across are those camwhoring, daily life updates and etc. Not to say I despise or disagree. A blog is created by it's creator and he or she has their own rights to write and decorate it the way they want. It's just that I hope I can read blogs the same type as mine, where opinions and views can be exchanged. You may not know it, but I do learn a lot actually from blogging and reading other people's blog. It's so cool =D

Q: Other than opinions, things and stuff, is there anything more about your blog?
A: I write poems too. It started out as something fun. I came to University Science Malaysia as a sad boy. A lonely boy. A boy still unable to let go of his cruel past. I lived in my room alone. Life was dull and plain. Then one day I tried to write my first poem, Jp The Bard From Kunte Forest . I wrote about the life I was living in. Note that Kunte, the name of the forest I derived, is not coincidental. Inverse the words "Kun-te", you'll get "Tekun", the name of the hostel I am staying. My second poem was on The Lord Of The Rings, The Fellowship Of The Ring . And the poems kept flowing and flowing. To tell you the truth, I'm quite amazed by the flair I have. ;) Guess I did follow what my ex-tuition teacher, Puan Thulasi's advice:" Don't stop writing. It will be a shame and a lost if you stop writing." Ahh, the words of encouragement that strong... And yeah, I kept on writing, although the kind of English I now use is more freestyle (chuckles).

Q: What do you look forward to adding inside your blog?
A: Well, I hope that I could add in some of my own photos. Haha. Yeah, writing about my daily life would be nice, accompanied by photos. They say "a picture speaks a thousand words". What more better to share experiences by showing off brilliant photos? But first, I have to get a decent camera( OMG, hopefully a DSLR). But before that, I need to learn the basics too! Wait till I have the time and money( Have to wait quite long). And yeah, I've been thinking to write a book too! Quite an impossible dream. But that's one of my fantasies and dreams. I haven't started on thinking it but hopefully, the feeling and the writing bug comes and bite me. Oh yeah, I will be opening a new blogspot then for that particular book. But that dream, hmmm, it's still so far from me.... Okay, I'm back to the reality... XD

Q: Thank you for sharing about you and your blog. Hope to see better advancements on you and your blog. Keep up the good work =)
A: My pleasure. Thanks to the support of my blog readers too. Without them, my blog would just be a wall where I scribble... Haha... *shakes hands

And that, was the overall interview. =)

挑

捞啊捞，钓啊钓，
海中的鱼儿上千万条，
是否自己的的眼光高？
所以我一条也钓不到。

找啊找，瞄啊瞄，
树上的的鸟儿都在叫，
等到找到再瞄一瞄，
结果一只鸟也打不到。

闹啊闹，抱啊抱，
情侣分分离离看到饱
早上吵架晚上和好
和不好就分道扬镳。

我的心，
它，

烧啊烧，跳啊跳，
想爱但我知道爱不到，
就算一生都找不到，
我还是会捞，钓瞄找。

=)

Miracles

"Miracles happen to those who believe them. It is not a gift if it happens. It is our will, that makes it happen! Have faith and believe, in miracles! "

-jpthedarkknight-

=)

If I Had A Wish, I Would Be Him

If I had a wish

I would wish that I am him,

A lone ranger from the North,

Yet within him the blood of Kings.

If I had a wish,

I would wish that I am him,

A man with dreams deeper than the sea

As he set sails to rule the Grand Line.

If I had a wish,

I would wish that I am him,

Ushering the Golden Age of Microbiology,

Finding cures to life threatening pathogens.

If I had a wish,

I would wish that I am him,

The whole field at his mercy

As he roams and terrorizes defenders.

If I had a wish,

I would wish that I am him,

Cos he is the one in your heart,

The one you deeply care for and love.

Transfer Market

For those who don't know football, in the footballing world, there will be a period where clubs are able to buy or sell players. A club can buy or sell players two times the whole year - the winter transfer market, which is the whole month of January, and the summer transfer market, the month June till the month of August.

Again, this post is not about the transfer market or any footballing fallacies and rumours. It's another metaphor.

Two things that is different from finding a girl friend and a football club getting a player.

1. Transfer market for getting a girl friend happens all year long. You don't need to wait for the Valentine month to get yourself a girl.


2. A football club can buy as many players as they want. Guys are however, entitled to one girl at a time.

Just as you thought that the differences are so big, here is why finding a girl friend is so like the transfer market.

1. No money, no talk.


2. Big players go to big clubs. So pretty boys get the pretty girls. Just like Real Madrid gets Cristiano Ronaldo.


3. Arguments may occur. Just like when a player is not interested to continue, he can leave the club.

Oh by the way, you don't get a transfer fee for letting a girl go to another guy. That's what again separates them both. You'll always end up in the losing side when you've lost some one, unless it's a good riddance...

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Okay. The real and main reason I think that they are both the same is because, it's not easy to buy a GOOD player who has a HEART for the club, and is able to stay there for LIFE. So true eh?

kudos to the old man Sir Bobby Charlton. Still loving Man United =)

LOL...

Lesson Learnt While Jogging

Study tension is rising. I have to admit, that for this semester, I haven't did my usual preparation. Even if there was any preparation, I'd have to say that I wasn't very serious.

You reap what you sow. If you haven't been nurturing your plants from the start of the semester, you can't expect to see them bearing fruits now. As the semester goes on, from second year to third year and so on, it gets tougher. More care, discipline and effort have to be put in.

Enough of the self lecturing. And enough of trying to repent what could not be undone. Time is nearly up. Yet I have been fretting and moaning about the time left and the stack of notes that haven't really left a clear imprint inside my noob brain. I cursed the notes and myself, until I'd really lost hope and interest in what I study.

I went for a jog. In fact I just came back and started this post. I set myself a target to run 5 rounds around the stadium track, the outer most track, in a maximum and consistent speed. On the second lap, I saw a group of students playing football at the field. My heart went:" Stop the jogging, join them. Do what you want and like!"


But then, another voice echoed:'You came here to jog. Although football is preferably your interest, but once you set out to do something, you must have the heart and will to finish it or complete it."


I kept running. In fact running with new found power and speed.

And right after I finish my 5 laps, I went and join them. Although there was barely any time left, I touched and held the ball most of the time, and I made no mistakes while playing...

Lesson learnt:"Never give up what you started to do. Although it seems hopeless and an impossible task, but never fail to achieve the importance of the something you do - Try your best"

Study mood, here I COME!!!