Uncertain

Again, my future seems unclear
As I trod along the path with fear
Knowing that adulthood is very near
That we must all go up the society tier

From baby, to walking, and running
Learning how to ride a bike, and then studying
Day by day, year by year passed without realising
That my study life, is on the brink of finishing

I will start my first step into the society
When I start my 5 month training industry
It is the requirement of my food tech degree
But certainly, not what I wanted to be.

To higher my education, or stop after I graduate
Is a complicated decision I haven't really made
As for me, both choices have their own requirement
Which of course needs a hell lot of commitment.

From Jp the dark knight, to the bard and the joker,
I've played many roles and personalities along my life
But the time when my path diverge,
Choose the right one, and never ever look back in remorse...

You RIGHT, I RONG!

Self-profess God, self-profess Genius,
Yes, compared to you I'm virtually nothing
You stepped on me, dissected me, did everything you like
But please remember, even a bacteria, has it's pride

Shame that God isn't really an individual,
If He were one, would your critics be aimed at Him?
Too bad He always stays up in Heaven.
So every disaster you blame it one me.

I easily forgive, that doesn't mean I forget.
But I always choose not to think of the bad.
But when you keep doing this and that,
Then sorry dude, you always give me a relapse.

What I do, I never wished for a thank you.
What you did, I'd never wish for an apology;
But please don't always take things for granted,
And please, don't always keep treating me as a blaming totem.

Maybe I was born with everything rong,
And you were born with everything right,
But every human is born with rights
You can't just walk along and shooting everyone in sight.

Rule The World - Take That- Lyrics and Review

OMG this is such a beautiful song. Sorry for being outdated again. =p

You light, the skies up above me
A star, so bright you blind me
Don't close your eyes
Don't fade away
Don't fade away
Ohh~~

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl, we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side, we can rule the world.

If walls, break down, I will come for you
If angels cry, oh I'll be there for you
You've saved my soul
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Ohh~~

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl, we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side, we can rule the world.

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you,

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl, we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side, we can rule the world.

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
Ooohhh~~

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl, we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side, we can rule the world.

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you

Horoscope -星座-

Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces, Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius.
山羊、水平，双鱼、牡羊座，金牛、双子，巨蟹座，狮子、处女、天枰、天蝎、射手座。

If I were to really give a frank answer, I will say that I don't believe in horoscopes. No. If I were to give an answer.
若是要我真正的给一个答案，我坚持说，我不相信星座的命运。就是不相信。要是真的要我给一个简单的答案。

But if I were to go deeper and think, horoscopes do play a mystical role. Why will most Aries agree that the winning mentality is a common trait? Is it possible for all people that are born in the same horoscopes to share same traits?
但是，如果再三思，星座真的是扮演一个无法解释的角色。为什么牡羊座的，通常都是怕输的？拥有同一个星座，是否真的和他或她，拥有一样的特征码？

I never really did care of the pros or the virtues of my horoscope. Nor believe the good luck I would have. But when it comes to the cons and the bad luck, there is a part of me that will believe or tend to take precaution. And there are some cons that I find that are quite true too, as an Aries characteristic.
我从来不在乎牡羊座的优点。也不相信幸运。但如果是谈到缺点、提防和不幸，终会有一点点怀疑和不得不信的感觉。我也发觉到，有一些的缺点或举动，会很容易让别人发现自己的星座。

Hot tempered. That is one of Aries negative traits. But I want to change the fact. The fact that hot tempered is a trait for all Aries.
脾气暴躁，这是牡羊座其中一个缺点。但我就是要改变这个事实。

During normal life, I dare say I'm cool enough. Cool enough to not raise the temperatures and get into fights or argues.
日常生活中，我敢讲自己有够冷静。很少和别人打架吵架。甚至可以说没有。

But when it comes to other things or specific situations, there is still a part of me that will be hot tempered. For example during playing football. I tend to get angry of myself for not doing a good job. I will shout and show my displeasure when I can't get pass someone or fail to score.
但如果来到一些场面或情况时，脾气暴躁的牡羊座也会献出他丑陋的一面。就比如踢球时，若表现不好，我会生气自己。当我带球过不到人，或进不到球，我会大喊，不爽。

But the good thing is, I'm do not vent my anger on other people. Or get into fights. To me, it is kind of a positive trait, which makes me wanna do better, push and fight harder and avoid making mistakes.
但好是好在，我没有和别人吵架。或乱打坏东西。我觉得，能够控制这火气，能够让自己更加的发奋，更加的用功，还有不要再犯同样的错。

It is impossible to change a trait. But it is not hard, to change destiny and fate.
江山易改，本性难移。要改变命运，其实不难。

Because every action and thing you do, will determine what will happen tomorrow. You reap what you sow.
因为您的一举一动，将操纵明天和未来。种瓜得瓜，种树得树。

But still, after questioning the probability of horoscopes playing with our fate in my whole post, I'd still say, I do not believe in horoscopes. Horoscopes may give you luck. But winners make their own luck.
但是，尽管我在这个post说明了星座有可能的准确，我还是坚持，不相信星座。星座，偶尔会带来好运。但一个成功的人，是需要自己的一举一动，来创造自己的命运。

Aries FTW~!!!
牡羊座万岁～！！

My Pre~cioussss~~!!!

My Pre~cioussssss~~!!!!

Precious. That was what Gollum called the One Ring. Poisoned by it, and controlled by it. And of course in the end, consumed by it, in the fires of Mount Doom...

I'm sure that many people would have read about a horrific incident where a youth committed suicide because of his girl friend leaving him. His name is Alviss Kong .

Now of course, if he were to be compared with Gollum, he is much more good looking than Gollum. Hell. He's even more good looking than any of us. God his looks. Super duper handsome.

But don't guys out there. Don't worry. WE are SMARTER and more LOGICAL than him...

I'd always believe that there is nothing in this world that is worth to die for. Even for someone you love. Come to think of it. If you really love someone and that someone also loves you too, would you give up your life for him or her? Have you really thought about the pain and torture he or she has to live through without you? I'd rather die with someone I love, or live together with them.

Sadly our dear friend hasn't thought about this. It's just his second relationship. And it's pure puppy love. He took his life because he was unable to control himself. The emotion. The thinking. The thoughts of his girl friend leaving him force him into such foolish act, that created sadness to his family, friends and the world.

He died, and we will forget him, this very guy who is now so hot on facebook, in 5 years time.

At least for our dear friend the Gollum, he died as the one carrying the ring into the flames of Mount Doom. And he was the main reason, the ring was destroyed. Everyone remembers that the don't they?


My note to Alviss, should he is able to see it

"我也有我以前的疯狂。你比我帅多。也比我幸福。因为你有谈过恋爱。你没有想过，你谈了恋爱才分手，至少曾经拥有。世上有几多个人，没有谈过恋爱，甚至来到世界不久，就要离开了。因为两次的失恋，你把自己的生命给丢了，那如果我思想和你一样，给我做猫九条命，也不够我活到今生今日。你的一举一动，或许在情侣的眼中，你的牺牲犹如罗密欧。但在大多人的眼中，你是个傻瓜。是个根本没有理会到身边的父母、亲人、朋友的感受的人。你为了一个树，而放弃整个森林；不，是你的一生。你真的真的，很自私。
我不知道，你现在在哪里。如果能够把时间扭转回到你还没做决定的时刻，你会改变主意，来改变你的命运吗？希望你真的后悔。

Everyone is praying for peace upon you. But you know the moment you jumped of the building with a broken heart, you'd never find peace; you'd lie in broken pieces. That's the freaking truth. You breathed your last breath on Earth and left as a sad soul. Peace is for you to find and realize the truth. We, really can't help that much... "

If praying and wishing was really that miraculous, doctors aren't the ones creating miracles and saving life. The under graduates right now will be pursuing their degree in scriptures chanting in temples. And you would find news about insufficient temples, mosque, churches to support growing numbers of under graduates. Hell, how would the world look like?

Wishes and prayers are merely verbal supports and believes. When it comes to effort and actions, you'd still have to rely on yourself.

Note To God - Charice Pempengco - lyrics and review

This is not a new song. But the fact that I'd never skipped this song when my music player is on random mode is due to the fact, it has awesome lyrics, beautiful melody, pretty singer, and a voice to die for.

Take it away Charice, and may God sees what's in your note. And mine too =D

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak what's in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away
For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
and for peace to mend this world

I'd say
I'd say
I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cause love is overdue
And it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find a way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness
in our hearts

I'd say
I'd say
I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cause love is overdue
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we're on

No
No

We can't do it on our own

So
So

(Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cause love is overdue)
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help

Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we're on

No
No
(No)We can't do it on our own

(So)
So

If I wrote a note to God

Aal Izz Well (All Is Well) 3 Idiots Song Lyrics & Translation

One of the main songs of The 3 Idiots. Very nice and meaningful...

The lyrics and word by word translation... And of course, the snippet of the film...

Na na re re ..

Jab life ho out of control honthon ko kar ke gol
When life goes out of control
Honthon ko kar ke gol seeti baja ke bol
Draw back your lips, whistle and exclaim
Life ho out of control honthon ko kar ke gol
When life goes out of control
Honthon ko kar ke gol seeti baja ke bol
Draw back your lips, whistle and exclaim
Aal izz well
All is well

Murgi kya jaane ande ka kya hoga
What does a hen know of the future of the egg?
Arrey life milegi ya tawe pe fry hoga
Will it get a life, orwill it be fried on a pen?
Koi na jaane apna future kya hoga
No one knows what our future can be
Honth ghuma seeti baja seeti baja ke bol
Draw back your lips and whistle, whistle and exclaim
Bhaiya aal izz well
Brother all is well
Arrey bhaiya aal izz well
Oh Brother all is well
Arrey chachu aal izz well
Oh Uncle all is well
Arrey bhaiya aal izz well
Oh Brother all is well

Confusion hi confusion hai
Confusion prevails
solution kuch pata nahi
none knows of a solution
Solution jo mila to saala
When a solution is discovered
question kya tha pata nahi
is by we've lost track of the question
Dil jo tera baat baat pe ghabraye
Console your heart when it is
Dil pe rakh le haath usse tu fusla le
restless at every juncture
Dil idiot hai pyaar se usko samjha le
The heart is an idiot, knock sense into it with kindness
Honth ghuma seeti baja seeti baja ke bol
Draw back your lips and whistle, whistle and exclaim
Bhaiya aal izz well
Brother all is well
Arrey bhaiya aal izz well
Oh brother all is well
Arrey chachu aal izz well
Oh Uncle all is well
Arrey bhaiya aal izz well
Oh Brother all is well

Scholarship ki pee gaya daaru
I guzzled the liquor of scholarship
ghum to phir bhi mitaa nahi
but the despair didn't lessen
Agar battiyan raakh ho gayi
The incense stick burned to ash
God to phir bhi dikha nahin
But we didn't see God

Bakra kya jaane uski jaan ka kya hoga
What does a goat knows of it's future
Seekh ghusegi ya saala keema hoga
Will it be skewered, will it be minced?
Koi na jaane apna future kya hoga
No one knows what our future will be
To honth ghuma seeti baja seeti baja ke bol
So draw back your lips, whistle
Bhaiya aal izz well
Brother all is well
Arrey bhaiya aal izz well
Oh brother all is well
Arrey chachu aal izz well
Oh Uncle all is well
Arrey bhaiya aal izz well
Oh Brother all is well

Jab life ho out of control honthon ko kar ke gol
When life goes out of control
Honthon ko kar ke gol seeti baja ke bol
Draw back your lips, whistle and exclaim
Aal izz well
All is well

Murgi kya jaane ande ka kya hoga
What does a hen know of the future of the egg?
Arrey life milegi ya tawe pe fry hoga hoho
Will it get a life, orwill it be fried on a pen? hoho
Koi na jaane apna future kya hoga kya hoga
No one knows what our future can be can be

Honth ghuma seeti baja seeti baja ke bol
Draw back your lips and whistle, whistle and exclaim
Bhaiya aal izz well
Brother all is well
Arrey murgi aal izz well
Oh hen all is well
Arrey bakre aal izz well
Oh goat all is well
Arrey bhaiya aal izz well
Oh Brother all is well

Na na na ..
Na na na..
Arrey bhaiya aal izz well Arrey bhaiya aal izz well
Oh Brother all is well, Oh Brother all is well!

3 Idiots Movie Review

After wiki-ing it, I just found that it was a 2009 film... It broke the box office in India and is now the highest grossing film in India of all time.

Farhan, Raju, and Rancho are 3 friends who got into an engineering college. Farhan however wanted to be a wildlife photographer, and is forced by his father to be an engineer. Raju aspires to be an engineer, but pressure from his family made him unable to really focus on his studies. Rancho however, was a genius from a wealthy family, and always tops the class, while his friends settled at the bottom. Despite the wide gap, the 3 of them are very close friends, despite quarrels happened.

Rancho's passion is for knowledge and taking apart and building machines rather than the conventional obsession of the other students with exam ranks. With his different approach Rancho incurs the wrath of dean of college, Professor Viru Sahastrabudhhe (ViruS). Rancho irritates his lecturers by giving creative and unorthodox answers.

They humiliated their classmate Chatur while trying to prank on Prof Virus during a convocation speech, leading Chatur to challenge Rancho to see who will be successful in 10 years time. Note that the film is a flashback of their university life.

In the present time, it was revealed that Rancho disappeared and lost contact with his friends after graduating. The story mainly revolves on finding him back after sources that he may have been alive was found. Farhan, Raju and Chatur went from place to place to search for Rancho, as the flasbacks of their University life making the story clearer and clearer.

As this film is horrendously long ( 2 hours plus), I'm finding it very difficult to write a full-fledged account of the plot. But in the end, all ended well... XD

A must watch... Easily the best film that you watched for this current year, and probably one of the best in your life time.

It is in Hindi and English. Do not be afraid for not being to catch the phrases or dialogues. With subtitles, I tell you, you're gonna enjoy this film...

Absolutely mind blowing, funny and 5 star rated movie from me!!!

And the soundtracks ROCK too! although it's in Hindi, but still, oh man, fantastic and wonderful!

The 3 Idiots... ;)

Grenade - Bruno Mars - Lyrics and Review

Currently I think nobody can beat Bruno Mars when it comes to writing, singing and producing songs. Most are familiar with his hit song Just The Way You Are . Well here is one song that I thought was catchy at first, but started to love it after listening to it a few times. It says so much on how a guy would go the distance to help or protect the girl he loves, even though he knows, he will end up with nothing as gratitude...

Enjoy!

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

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Some thing funny about love... It hurts your heart so much, that you somehow wanna take that pain and substitute it on your flesh... Rather let the bones and muscle take the damage and the inflicted pain...

I feel like I'd wanna run away from the cruel truth, till my arms and limbs drop. Sounds cool?

Emo ramblings...

在梅边

觉得这首歌里面的歌词很有意思和意义...

"这厢是 梦梅恋上画中的仙 那厢是 丽娘为爱消香殒碎

为了爱 不吃不喝不睡 但穿过千年爱情不再流行生死相恋
爱是什么 什么是爱 接近以后就电 喜欢以后就追 腻了以后就飞
但亲爱 我为你狂 我为你变 就让我爱你爱的很深很远很古典 "

在梅边不知爱何时出现 在现实生活还是只能在梦里面...

在梅边

烦～～！！

当感性胜过理性时，为一个人做东西，不需要任何理由。就算需要牺牲，别人看起来是多么不值得，甚至自己也会问自己为什么这样傻，到最后还是会做。

烦。真的是烦！当理性和感性两个不同的想法相撞，真的是不知所措。到底要用Logic来解决，或者是凭着感觉去做。那头一直在想合理的方法，那心就要我以感觉来做事。

他妈的！真的很 EMO 啊～！！！！！！！

此刻，一直以理性胜过感性的我，不能不承认，已被感性化了。就靠着一丝的理性，我才没有那么鲁莽...

=(

What If -Jason Derulo-

Exactly my mood and feeling now. =) Nice song. Enjoy =)



What if?
What if I'm the one for you?
And you're the one for me?
What if...

If you are the one
Then us meeting here is fate
Future with a dog named Ben
Buy a house with a fireplace
This is the first I've seen your face
But there a chance we are soulmates
I know that this might sound crazy
You don't know my name

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

What if [6x]

Picture me on one knee
With the perfect diamond ring
We just met, but if you say "yes"
We'd have our wedding on the beach
It could happen, raise three kids
And grow old so happily
I know this may sound crazy
Cuz you don't know my name

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

Don't know what tomorrow brings
But i'm still hoping
That you are the one for me
Oh and what if I had you and what if you had me and
Baby, what's the reason we can't fall in love?
What if
What if
What if

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

But we can't
We can't tell
The future no
The first kiss, the beauty of the world we know
So Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if
We all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu
Baby, what if

Hot Property

Can a "lame" property stay un-sold for one semester? Can the buyer, be interested in it for one semester before inquiring for a purchase?

Lame because the owner appraised it too low. It's hot property from what I, the buyer sees it. This is THE ONE. How sure I am? Sometimes in such situation, it's the guts and faith that tells you what to do. That doing this something insane or crazy, is definitely worth it...

I don't know how many out there are eying the same property as I do. But I do know that I'm not the only buyer interested. And the bad part is, I'm unknown to the other buyers. How many, who's in a better position... This and that. Nada. Zero. I only know my own situation.

As I did mention in my previous post, I can only hope it stays un-sold. To wish it to stay un-sold, would be plain selfish. I have to understand the basics. The best buyer always win. It need not be the richest, or the highest bid. The one who succeed, is hence the best.

Yes. I have been out of the transfer market for like ages. Every time I kept out was because of the wrong choice.

But this is the one, that I know once I give up, it would be hard to find another similar one. Let alone a better one...

Cos it's a hot property. And every buyer, would be interested.

The only thing I can do now, is sit back and observe, for 9 effing months, as I monitor the progress of the property...

It's the only choice I have left...

And I'm seriously, INTERESTED!!!!!!!

My hope

A lot of things can happen in one semester. I can only hope, but I can't wish...

Wishing "it" would make me selfish.

For once in my life, I leave this matter, to Faith and God...

If I do get the chance, I swear, I would hold on to it, and never let you go...

对考试与考生的感触

一个sem又快过了。考试将在几天内挂上完美的结局。看到别的朋友都已纷纷考完，剩我还没考完还真有点羡慕。

不要说考试时间比较长，所以温习得比较周到。我不知道别人如何。对我来说，时间越多，浪费与蹉跎就更厉害！现在真的是后悔拿到这样一个时间表。考一科，空三天，考第二科，空一个礼拜！再来考剩下的三张。

但是可能对别人来说，这或许是一个安排到很好的时间表。可以完完全全应付每一张科目。如果您真的是如此，那我可没话好讲。但如果您和我有一样的同感，宁愿一股气冲完考试，然后再来享受假期，岂不是更好吗？不要说来不及。人生中这样多急事，咱们还不是这样度过它吗？只要有压力和冲力，一定能来得及。是看您自己相不相信自己的实力。或许现在的孩子都怕压力吧，怕到连PMR都要废除。唉～！没药救...

可能，我想东西比一般人周到。当semester还走着一半的时候，当tests都纷纷现身的时候，可以看得出，每个人都想拖，想要读多一点。如果那多一点，您真的有把握它，他是真的会帮助您。但请摸摸自己的良心。我们真的有很认真地利用时间吗？结果一拖再拖，拖到study week 之前那几个礼拜忙到好像狗酱。读书的mood和状态全都被吸光了。哇靠！真的不得了。

我还有心情在这里写部落格、指指点点。或许当初你们会觉得我很自私，什么都要快快settle. 我也想慢慢来，但我知道慢慢来都后来会给自己添加那些不必的压力和麻烦。还想起上几个sem, 还没study week 都可以开始温习了。但是这个sem... 唉。没话讲。无言。

我班上的确有几个很厉害的同学。不只厉害，而且很勤劳。可惜本人可是班上数一数二的懒惰学生。他们有真正的充分利用时间，是他们有把握好。愿望高如山的，想要每个sem都是优秀生，没有错。只是，或许只是我一个人的懒惰，似乎跟整班学生的看法完全倒反。

因为我知道，Dean list不会让我真正快乐和高兴。它只是让我有成就感。让我证明给自己和全世界，证明我，王祖龐，是会读书的人。就算我进来USM的时候，都不知道这个course要读什么鬼屁的科目，我还是照读、考试。以优秀的成绩来打到别人，来显示出我的厉害，is not my cup of tea or board of games. 这种游戏，小学玩到中学，都已经玩到很累了。我，已没有再想跟着玩下去了。

我真正快乐，是能够拥有自由，是想要做什么，就做什么。不需要想，不需要考虑。只要没有害到人，没有违反宪法、规则和道德。别人读书我打机、踢球、看戏、看球、睡觉。不是我读完了。也不是我尽力了。是我不想因为考试，而破坏我的一天可以拥有的幸福和做我想要做的事。我告诉过自己。一天的快乐与伤悲，由自己来决定。就算明天考什么鬼的科目，只要我知道我的成绩不会难看到哪里去，我会不后悔地把时间，拿来做想要做的事。


如果2012真的是世界末日，或许大学上千万的人以骄傲的成绩毕业而胜过我。但我相信，那一天死到最高兴的，没有人可以赢过我。因为我相信自己有把人生中的每一天，每一分，每一秒都活到最快乐。


"I had lived everyday of my life to it's maximum happiness. It may not be the fullest or the grandest, but at least, I was happy, am happy, and will always be happy... "

=)

*Any critics are merely coincidental and is not aimed directly to specific individuals...

我在USM两年半的感触

Okay this post was supposed to be another Chinese post. But I can't type the whole sentence and just only word by word, which is a hassle. I'll stick in English then... =)

Title translates as "My feelings during the 2 and a half years in USM". I really can't believe that I have passed 2 years plus at Penang. A lot happened during this 2 years.

Let's start from 1st year. I was still a sad and lost boy when I came in. I was still unable to accept the fact that my dream of becoming a doctor was virtually, POOF- gone. And plus the "girl" problem, life was like hell. I was so vulnerable. So lonely. Nobody understood my feelings that time. But in came the new friends that began to take away the gloom of my life. Who cares that I was the only guy in the gang that time... I had the 3 most caring "girl friends" of my life. They were really like sisters to me... Although they forbid me from calling them sisters... XD

Then came second semester. I lived a life of a lazy student. Always playing truants. For no particular reasons. Sometimes to sleep. Sometimes to play games. Miraculously, I still got a GPA above 3.00. God blessed me.

Then came second year. I promised myself it's time to get serious. Time to forget about that 'someone' who does not give a damn to my life. Time to prove that I too, can be one of the cream of the crop. The dream and desire to get a Dean list came. My neighbours saw my studying methods and all thought that I have gone mad. I succeeded in forgetting the girl that was on my mind for an effing 2 years. But I got a crush on someone I should not have. Although there were some good times, I told myself NEVER to be the 3rd party. She became my past and history swiftly. And it sucks that I did not get my wanted Dean list that semester...

2nd year semester came. That dream to get a Dean list burned brighter and brighter. My neighbours say I was even more crazier than last semester. LOL I dunno. Thanks to the distribution of the subject units, I got it, just passing the least requirement =D Dream achieved!

Now half of 3rd year is going up to smoke. I can hope as much as I can, but chances of maintaining Dean is hard. But I'm positive all will pass by smoothly. =D

And I hope it does... =D

Words of Wisdom 2

自己的优点, 由别人来发现; 自己的缺点, 由自己来改变。

Let others praise your virtues, but let it be yourself that better your weaknesses.

-jpthedarkknight-

Thank You For The Broken Heart - J. Rice (Lyrics and song)

Nice song! Enjoy! =) A perfect song for your ex who has hurt you. At least he or she taught you something... Thank him or her for that =D

Everything I know about love, I learn from you, from you
And everything I know about pain, I learn from you, you
You were my only, you were my first
You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt
But the most important thing you ever gave me was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart
And thank you for the permanent scar
'Cause If It wasn't for you, I might have forget how It feels to let go
and how It feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

I still remember when you called and said that he, didn't mean anything
And how could you expect me to, look at you, the same way
You were my only, but not my last
You showed me lonely, and you made me put you in the past
But the most important thing you ever gave me was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart
Oh yeah yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar
'Cause If it wasn't for you, I might have forget how It feels to let go and how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

And every time I find myself alone in pieces
I find myself
I'll just remember when you hurt me, and I made it

So thank you for the broken heart
And thank you for the permanent scar
'Cause If It wasn't for you, I wouldn't be here, for the love of my life,
All my pain disappeared, I've come so far
So thank you for the broken heart
I thank you, I thank you, for the broken heart
Broken heart, my broken heart
I'll never have a broken heart again

Love The Way You Lie Part 2 - Rihanna feat Eminem

Oh yeah. Am I glad to proudly announce that there is a part two. I heard it today on RED FM, can't believe it and came back and search for it. Now just waiting for the official MV =). Try searching here and after the 1 minute, you'll get the whole song...

Lyrics -

[Rihanna]
On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna]
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war, you'll always win
Even when I'm right
'Cause you feed me fables from your hand
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]

[Rihanna]
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
Til the walls are goin' up
In smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
This house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
With you I'm in my fuckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

ADIDAS

ADIDAS. Ambition. Dream. Inspiration. Determination. Achievement. Sanguine.

-jpthedarkknight-

Sorry to ADIDAS for making an acronym out of it's name. But yeah, I do hope that the headquarters find this out and make this their acronym for ADIDAS, if it is cool ;)

Thanks for teaching me this lesson: "Impossible Is Nothing"

=D

Q&A On The Blogger Himself, Jpthedarkknight And His Blog Diaries Of The Untold =p

The one and only, -Jpthedarkknight-

We were fortunate that we were able to interview the author himself, on his blog, the Diaries Of The Untold. Below is the full account of the interview.

Q: Hello jpthedarkknight. It's a pleasure that you are able to spend your time on this interview. We are know that this is your exam week, and the fact that you are still willing to sacrifice time for this makes us grateful.
A: Oh it's nothing. It's my pleasure too to be able to let my readers know more about me and my
blog. =)

Q: Can I first ask why you started this blog?
A: Actually to be frank, this isn't my first blog. My first blog was my blog at Friendster. That was during my matriculation time. It started with some emotional ramblings. And that's how it went on. What ramblings? Hmm... Ramblings on what I am frustrated on, what I wanted, what I wanted to do. And yeah, on my previous and quite serious crush on XXX.

Q: Oh, that's how it started. Regarding to your present blog, the one we are talking about now. Why Diaries Of The Untold?
A: Hmm. What I write in my blog, usually you don't catch me saying it out during my real life, or feelings that I do not show out. So it's kinda like a place where I pour out my thoughts, my views. Of course they are not always right. But yeah, I do think there are some truths in my thoughts and views. So as it is a blog, which I somehow write what I feel and think, it's like a Diary and the fact that I never tell or say it out loud, certainly makes my blog posts, Untold. And yeah for those who don't read my blog, it forever remains Unknown to them. I specifically chose the word Untold, as whoever does visit my blog, I'm sure that my posts aren't Unknown to them.

Q: Oh I see. Nice title then(self praising my self! OMG XD). So everything you write in your blog, is real? I mean there is no tricks up your sleeves that you might, you know, like shoot someone in the dark or play psychological games?
A: LOL! (rolls eyes and laugh). Like I said. Posts are of my thoughts. My thinking. My view. I don't deny that I may be wearing a mask in life, during MSN chats, and most of all, Facebook, but I dare say that I don't lie here at my blog. It's my space, one place that I created. If anyone does not like it or disagree, they can choose not to visit my blog. And they can't ask me what not to write and tell me what is wrong. Like I said, it's my point of view. That's something you can't really change. But yeah, I welcome suggestions and debates, with manners. And of course, I write with the consideration of not provoking or defaming others. So far there isn't any problem I've encountered that I've write bad things, save one.

Q: What incident was that?
A: Hmm... I wrote a poem saying bad things on one of my friends. I decline to be questioned further on this matter, but if I were to turn back the clock, I'd wish I could stop myself for being that irrational. I wanted to erase that post after realizing my mistake, but another friend of mine suggests that it is better to apologize rather than erase the post and act if like it never happened. So I wrote another poem to apologize. After that incident, I've learned to be more rational, and to think before I write something.

Q: Nobody is perfect. It was a tough one, but surely a good lesson. What separates you with other bloggers? There are so many types of bloggers. Which kind are you?
A: My posts are based on thoughts, my thinking and yeah, my point of view. I think that there aren't much this type of blogger, save those political leaders' blogs. So far I have come across one or two. Most of the blog types I come across are those camwhoring, daily life updates and etc. Not to say I despise or disagree. A blog is created by it's creator and he or she has their own rights to write and decorate it the way they want. It's just that I hope I can read blogs the same type as mine, where opinions and views can be exchanged. You may not know it, but I do learn a lot actually from blogging and reading other people's blog. It's so cool =D

Q: Other than opinions, things and stuff, is there anything more about your blog?
A: I write poems too. It started out as something fun. I came to University Science Malaysia as a sad boy. A lonely boy. A boy still unable to let go of his cruel past. I lived in my room alone. Life was dull and plain. Then one day I tried to write my first poem, Jp The Bard From Kunte Forest . I wrote about the life I was living in. Note that Kunte, the name of the forest I derived, is not coincidental. Inverse the words "Kun-te", you'll get "Tekun", the name of the hostel I am staying. My second poem was on The Lord Of The Rings, The Fellowship Of The Ring . And the poems kept flowing and flowing. To tell you the truth, I'm quite amazed by the flair I have. ;) Guess I did follow what my ex-tuition teacher, Puan Thulasi's advice:" Don't stop writing. It will be a shame and a lost if you stop writing." Ahh, the words of encouragement that strong... And yeah, I kept on writing, although the kind of English I now use is more freestyle (chuckles).

Q: What do you look forward to adding inside your blog?
A: Well, I hope that I could add in some of my own photos. Haha. Yeah, writing about my daily life would be nice, accompanied by photos. They say "a picture speaks a thousand words". What more better to share experiences by showing off brilliant photos? But first, I have to get a decent camera( OMG, hopefully a DSLR). But before that, I need to learn the basics too! Wait till I have the time and money( Have to wait quite long). And yeah, I've been thinking to write a book too! Quite an impossible dream. But that's one of my fantasies and dreams. I haven't started on thinking it but hopefully, the feeling and the writing bug comes and bite me. Oh yeah, I will be opening a new blogspot then for that particular book. But that dream, hmmm, it's still so far from me.... Okay, I'm back to the reality... XD

Q: Thank you for sharing about you and your blog. Hope to see better advancements on you and your blog. Keep up the good work =)
A: My pleasure. Thanks to the support of my blog readers too. Without them, my blog would just be a wall where I scribble... Haha... *shakes hands

And that, was the overall interview. =)

挑

捞啊捞，钓啊钓，
海中的鱼儿上千万条，
是否自己的的眼光高？
所以我一条也钓不到。

找啊找，瞄啊瞄，
树上的的鸟儿都在叫，
等到找到再瞄一瞄，
结果一只鸟也打不到。

闹啊闹，抱啊抱，
情侣分分离离看到饱
早上吵架晚上和好
和不好就分道扬镳。

我的心，
它，

烧啊烧，跳啊跳，
想爱但我知道爱不到，
就算一生都找不到，
我还是会捞，钓瞄找。

=)

Miracles

"Miracles happen to those who believe them. It is not a gift if it happens. It is our will, that makes it happen! Have faith and believe, in miracles! "

-jpthedarkknight-

=)

If I Had A Wish, I Would Be Him

If I had a wish

I would wish that I am him,

A lone ranger from the North,

Yet within him the blood of Kings.

If I had a wish,

I would wish that I am him,

A man with dreams deeper than the sea

As he set sails to rule the Grand Line.

If I had a wish,

I would wish that I am him,

Ushering the Golden Age of Microbiology,

Finding cures to life threatening pathogens.

If I had a wish,

I would wish that I am him,

The whole field at his mercy

As he roams and terrorizes defenders.

If I had a wish,

I would wish that I am him,

Cos he is the one in your heart,

The one you deeply care for and love.

Transfer Market

For those who don't know football, in the footballing world, there will be a period where clubs are able to buy or sell players. A club can buy or sell players two times the whole year - the winter transfer market, which is the whole month of January, and the summer transfer market, the month June till the month of August.

Again, this post is not about the transfer market or any footballing fallacies and rumours. It's another metaphor.

Two things that is different from finding a girl friend and a football club getting a player.

1. Transfer market for getting a girl friend happens all year long. You don't need to wait for the Valentine month to get yourself a girl.


2. A football club can buy as many players as they want. Guys are however, entitled to one girl at a time.

Just as you thought that the differences are so big, here is why finding a girl friend is so like the transfer market.

1. No money, no talk.


2. Big players go to big clubs. So pretty boys get the pretty girls. Just like Real Madrid gets Cristiano Ronaldo.


3. Arguments may occur. Just like when a player is not interested to continue, he can leave the club.

Oh by the way, you don't get a transfer fee for letting a girl go to another guy. That's what again separates them both. You'll always end up in the losing side when you've lost some one, unless it's a good riddance...

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Okay. The real and main reason I think that they are both the same is because, it's not easy to buy a GOOD player who has a HEART for the club, and is able to stay there for LIFE. So true eh?

kudos to the old man Sir Bobby Charlton. Still loving Man United =)

LOL...

Lesson Learnt While Jogging

Study tension is rising. I have to admit, that for this semester, I haven't did my usual preparation. Even if there was any preparation, I'd have to say that I wasn't very serious.

You reap what you sow. If you haven't been nurturing your plants from the start of the semester, you can't expect to see them bearing fruits now. As the semester goes on, from second year to third year and so on, it gets tougher. More care, discipline and effort have to be put in.

Enough of the self lecturing. And enough of trying to repent what could not be undone. Time is nearly up. Yet I have been fretting and moaning about the time left and the stack of notes that haven't really left a clear imprint inside my noob brain. I cursed the notes and myself, until I'd really lost hope and interest in what I study.

I went for a jog. In fact I just came back and started this post. I set myself a target to run 5 rounds around the stadium track, the outer most track, in a maximum and consistent speed. On the second lap, I saw a group of students playing football at the field. My heart went:" Stop the jogging, join them. Do what you want and like!"


But then, another voice echoed:'You came here to jog. Although football is preferably your interest, but once you set out to do something, you must have the heart and will to finish it or complete it."


I kept running. In fact running with new found power and speed.

And right after I finish my 5 laps, I went and join them. Although there was barely any time left, I touched and held the ball most of the time, and I made no mistakes while playing...

Lesson learnt:"Never give up what you started to do. Although it seems hopeless and an impossible task, but never fail to achieve the importance of the something you do - Try your best"

Study mood, here I COME!!!

爱，之所以甜蜜

Another freakin post in Chinese. Pardon me cause I think when it comes to love and relationship, some how it's better to be written in Chinese, despite the fact my Chinese sucks and I hate writing in Chinese.

爱情之所以甜蜜，不是自己去体会它有多甜；而是尽力地让对方觉得，它有多甜... =)

先声明。我非常佩服那些很坚守着自己恋情的人。特别是女生。我觉得，一个男生能够有一个那么地喜欢他，想他想到要疯狂，漂亮，聪明又能干的女朋友，会是很幸福，很幸福。

我一生人遇过不少这种类型的女生。甚至大多数，都是算蛮熟的朋友。看她们与男友被时间和距离煎熬，往往会被她们的 loyalty 吸引，甚至有时还会因为她们那么 loyal, 而产生好感。

自从上次XXX后，我在感情方面，有时候，真的太理性化。要考虑这个那个。但考虑到来，幸好每次做的决定，是正确的。但我也必须知道，考虑太多，是不好的。毕竟感情，是要以感性为主。恋爱时要浪漫时得浪漫。也不能抓不到对方的节奏而破坏整个情景。

但是，当感情出现问题时，往往解决的方式也得靠理性。问题就是问题，必须追根究底，并不是抱抱两下，吻吻几下，问题就解决了。有时候，解决问题并非需要什么秘诀。只需要一点点的改变，和牺牲。

爱情，永远都和牺牲扯不掉关系。一位妈妈有多爱自己的儿女，从她怀孕九个月，生下他们，养大他们，都是在牺牲着。毫无埋怨地牺牲着。

对。身为一个男女朋友，或许牺牲不是一个必要。或许，选择放弃，也是一个比较容易的结局。但如果不禁风吹雨打的感情，还叫做爱吗？

很多人认为，恋爱，是甜蜜的。我认为，恋爱时，大多数都是在烦恼着。但是，就是因为能够为一个人烦恼和痛，然后看到另一半因为你的付出而感到幸福。这，才是我所谓的...

* this is my point of perspective. Not necessary the truth... =) and my chinese sucks!

Questioning Men's Point Of View On Religion

Almost one week I posted. Again it's a sudden update. This is a very abrupt post. And it might be sensitive. But be assured that at the end of the day, I mean no harm and this is only MY POINT OF VIEW.

No doubt, everyone has their own believes and religions. It doesn't matter if you're an atheist, Buddhist, Muslim or what so ever. Each and everyone has their own God or deities, which may differ, but when it comes to moral values and the path of righteousness, most of the time, it is the SAME.

However, about a month ago, I did found out some unbelievable facts. It seems that for some religions, if you're not a follower, or do not believe in the same God as they do, you are bound to Hell. ( In layman terms, if you believe their God, then welcome to Heaven)

I personally find that quote or statement or requirement, bizarre! Just because of a belief, one can book his place into the gates of Heaven, even though he or she has sinned more than a none believer!



But halt, wait! Was that stated by the religion? Is there any saying that proofs the believe of the One True Creator guarantees the passage to the Garden of Eden?

Or merely, there are the words of Men, who long time ago, manipulated the minds of non-believers to spread religion?

If God really did know that The Earth circled around the Sun, then why did Nicoulas Copernicus was condemned to death by You-Know-Who? And they did it in the name of THEIR GOD!

The man who postulated a comprehensive heliocentric cosmology,
Nicolaus Copernicus

Similarly the 9/11. It was done in the NAME OF GOD!

Hell, did God ever wanted you to do that?

Or, is it what YOU wanted, and put the words into YOUR GOD'S MOUTH, and made it look like what HE said...

Food For Thought...

ps* If it is true that I am destined to Hell for not embracing certain religion's God, then I will take Death and the passage to Hell like a Man. At least, I won't be going there alone...

I fear not Death nor Hell. =)

Peace. And mean no disrespect. If any statements are harsh or proved wrong, please do rectify and a thousand apologies. Again, I meant no harm...

Next Semester...

For your information, my next semester would be entirely based on my internship. And guess the company I got.....

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MacFood!!!!

which manufactures...


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Fat die me lo... T.T

The Law Of Ueki (植木の法则) review

Few days ago, I finally finished this 51 episodes-anime, The Law of Ueki. And my, was it a fabulous one!

Plot of the story is roughly about, the current God of Heaven wants to pick a new candidate to succeed him. Among the so called "deities", who are chosen as one of the candidates, must choose a high school student ( or roughly someone in that age) as a contestant of a fighting tournament, giving him or her a specific power or ability, and fight other contestants. The winner of the tournament is granted a "blank zai" or blank talent, which grants the winner any talent he or she wants. The deity in charge of the tournament winner would hence succeed as the new God.

Ueki using his ability

Ueki was one of the contestants. His deity in charge was Kobayashi, his home room teacher. Kobayashi never did wanted to become a God. In Ueki's case, he was actually testing Ueki's justice by trying to give him an ability. At first Ueki declines to have powers. But after a demonstration which Kobayashi destroyed a tree, Ueki asked for a power which can turned rubbish bits into trees.

Plot goes on to which Ueki is revealed as a Heavenly Being ( as in someone who lives in Heaven) but is thrown down to Earth by his father in order to win the tournament for himself ( Ueki's biological father thought of choosing him as his candidate for the tournament) but unfortunately, he was not chosen as a candidate. As a Heavenly being, Ueki can use the 10 treasures ( weapons used for offences and also defences).

Climax of the anime is of course the battle at Heaven. Ueki made up his own tag team, and was one of the few teams allowed to continue the tournaments further. Although his group members were relatively much weaker than the other teams, however with team work, believe and trust, they miraculously got to the final stage, battling Anon, a Hellion ( the opposite of a Heavenly Being).

Anon, the ultimate antagonist

All's well does ends well. Ueki defeated Anon, and in the end, went back to his old life as a high school student, with of course, a talent of his choice... =)